i can't

after 6hours in car,

travelling from kedah to Kl..

*although the highway was jammed with cars from out of nowhere

and my dad managed to make a new lane..other cars too...we used the emergency lane..

and it's the fastest lane..otherwise i think i wont be here blogging at this moment..

might still be in the car...sleeping..

so i was going to say that after 6 hours in car..sleeping most of the time..

now i think i can't sleep..

but i have to wake up early tomorrow as we have to go to PJ Caring Home for our community service..

can't imagine how the 6 of us are going to entertain the old folks there..

only 6 of us!!!

the other places..40, 20 people are going..

what ever~hopefully everything is going to turn up great tomorrow~

yes...

i can't sleep...

and

while facebooking...

i saw my senior's status on her facebook...

she wrote..

Sometimes when you give up on someone, it's not because you don't care anymore, but because you realize they don't

and suddenly it hits me..

damn true

why wait for people who don't care or never seems to care about you..right?

but most of the time..

giving up on someone is very hard because you know you still care about that person..

reality hurts

the Quest: Red Velvet #Part 1

ok..last post i talked about my craving of red velvet cupcake/cake.

so yesterday~after came back from mid valley, i realized that i forgot to buy red velvet..

so i told kam..and she said she was thinking of buying me a red velvet too when she went to OU..

but she forgot too..

so...impulsively we decided to go to bangsar village to hunt for red velvet after maghrib~ :D

and we had to ask mercy from aiman to send both of us there~~

so the first target was...the daily grind-but we couldn't find any red velvet cake..so we went to the second floor..-bijoux

and we found the cupcake~

looked yummy right...so i was very happy because finally i got the chance to eat red velvet cupcake~

after i had my dinner..took a nap for a while..then i tasted the cupcake..

unfortunately, the taste was not up to my expectation~ :(

the cream and the cupcake~ :(

somehow the chocolate taste was very strong that i felt like i was eating a chocolate cupcake.. :(

owh yeah...

before we went back,

we walked across the daily grind..and we saw......

whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!

so...

our next mission..probably next week :D

is to go to daily grind and buy a slice of red velvet cake~

i really hope that it tastes GOOOOOOOOD....just like what i've been thinking~

let's say if the taste is still not up to or even par to my expectation, really have to ask recipe from anak cikgu amnah~her daughter's red velvet cake was DAEBAK!!something that i would say..

YUMMYLICIOUS and my reaction would be..

or

the moment where kuroyanagi's reaction after eating azuma's bread..and he bend over~haha

ok..

better get ready~am going back to kedah~

YummyLicious

ok...

now i want something YUMMYLICIOUS!!!

RED VELVET CAKE or RED VELVET CUPCAKE!

aaaa..indeed YUMMY and DELICIOUS!

ok...this one is pretty cool too..i mean..YUMMY~

ok anyone who wants to treat me RED VELVET cake/cupcake???!!!

i will love you forever! :D

or..anyone who kind enough to bake one for me?? :D

http://bestcupcakerecipes.blogspot.com/2009/02/red-velvet-cupcake-recipe.html

wish list

wish list..

is it too soon to write one or is it too late??

naa..who cares..better late than never..never wrote one before :D

ok..

so far..right now..in my head i have thousands of wishes..but not necessarily i want them now..

it's just that what i have in my mind..that i wish i could do..or i could have..or i could be..now..tomorrow..the day after tomorrow..or in simple word=future...

well of course in a wish list, doesn't mean you have to set the date when you want to achieve your wish..right?

ok..

(they said i love to use the word OK even in my class when i'm teaching..whenever i wanted to start a new instruction or sentence..i would say..ok..sometimes it would be followed by the word "right")

well..that's just me..right?~it's not a bad thing to do it right?somehow it has become a habit~

old habit die hard~

..(trying not to write the word OK-----but i did..haha...ok..pretty lame -_-")

i won't write my list according to chronological order..

so it doesn't mean the number 1 wish is what i want now and the 100th wish will be for my future...

wow...100???seriously..we'll see..i haven't count them yet..might or might not achieve 100 wishes..

so...here we go...

nervous~

i wish

1. i could have my graduation in auckland too..(ok this is under the influence of my previous post)
2. too see and meet my long awaited peeps from auckland~lala+ema+tonton+syafiq...ok you guys seriously!!finish your stuff there and quickly come back to malaysia..can't wait to meet you guys! (gara-gara flipping through the old yet beautiful pictures of us..sobs)
3. i could finish my KISSM assignments..and i really wish that i have the strength to click open folder for the KISSM notes~hahaha...
4. i could spend more time with my mates..505bedas~~since we have less than a month before the 10 of us heading to our own fates and destinies...(ok..i know..i'm sweet..can't help it :P)
5. i will start working on February~hahaha..but on the second thought..working in May could be a good thing too..cause i could plan for activities that i've had in my head since last month...which is..
6. i could do a program or two with my students who are going to sit for big exams next year..all of them are going to be in their Form5 and Form3..so..i'm thinking of doing some activities with them and for them...something to boost their confidence~the expectations of real life outside school..the university life(this one, i was planning on inviting my other friends~88elements to help out..since all of us went to different unis and the life styles could be different, some tips etc)...to work on their communicative skills..perhaps i could bring my "Speak Up Talk More" proposal..the one that i did for my assignment~put it into practice..and see how it works..i've thinking of making something so that we (88element-my batch) could contribute something to our school~ok..for some reasons which i personally don't know the reasons are...i love my school~~~and my friends keep on saying that my fate is all about my school..what ever i do i'm going to end up there~ (few of them are betting that i will go there~~~~~)..but..i do love my school..it's just that i don't wish to be posted there...for some valid reasons~
7. i can be a good teacher...and soon...a great teacher..since the day that i realized how i love this profession, i always wanted to be a teacher who can inspire her students..to be great person~and of course..i want to be inspired by my students too~
8. i will never forget the reason why i want to be a teacher..my stands and my beliefs..as i know..what we have in our minds do not always agree with the reality..and i'm afraid that the challenges that i might get through in the future will make me forget of these reasons~
9. one day..one of my students will come to me..and say.."teacher..saya ingat lagi teacher pernah ajar saya dulu"....awww..so sweet isn't it..but it's the truth..at least it shows that he/she still remember me..it's the thought that matter~ :D
10. my handphone screen is going to survive for another 2 years at least~haiye...me and technology has never been a good friend~
11. i would be a great cook!~haha
12. i own my own car~dang...the last time i drove..it was a kembara with two driving instructors-ekwan and shedah...and i totally..ok..almost forgot everything about driving..and it's manual!!seriously need a car to practice my driving skill since my mom wont let me drive Unser or Hilux..the only "cars" at home..and partly my mistakes too~enjin mati tengah simpang etc~hahaha
13. my laptop will last for another few years~hahah...again..the technology thing~
14. i could write short stories~ i need to improve on my writing skills~haha...suddenly it reminds me of my kids' essays~
15. i will be a good daughter to my parents..the one that will always make them proud..
16. i could repay my parents for what they've done to me..since i was in my mom's womb for 9months10days...and now...23years6months17days..and more to come~insyaAllah..i know none that i can do that will ever equivalent to their deeds~but i will try my best~
17. everyday is a happy day~for you and for me~for everyone...haha
18. to organize a reunion for 88element..i've been planning to do it in december~or late november..somewhere out of KL since most of them who are staying outside KL complained that the reunions always took place in KL~am thinking of the venue and the suitable date..but haven't propose to the group yet~
19. i will be a good friend~
20. i wish i could write this list up to 100th but it seems not going to happen as i'm starting to feel tired with myself~hahah..but will write to 23rd..ok..come on!
21. someone will buy me a Nissan Fair Lady Z~hahahahahha..blue one~~~ :D---->totally a wishful thinking~
22. i can be less serious~~am i too serious?
23. i will meet my other half..

-the end-

:D

Graduasi

ok..

this post might has a lil essence of jealousy in it~

haha...

ok..

whenever i opened my facebook, i saw tonnes of pictures of my friends on their graduation days~

a part of me was..YEAY...i'm happy for you..it's your big day...finally..you get your degree/master..

and proudly call yourself graduate of bla bla bla...

a part of me was.. -_-"..lucky you...i'm jealous of you..finally...you can move on to the next level..while i'm stuck in here..

yeah..i know that my time will come sooooooon...but..

i don't know...

and the most jealous part is..

when looking at my friends' pictures who graduated in UOA-University of Auckland

aaaaaa..

how i wish i could be there next year for my graduation...

it's a wishful thinking...

oh Mr Government..how i wish you could sponsor me to have my graduation there~~ *_*

ok..

enough..

time to knock my head and put my feet on the ground back~

my time will come soon..

next year..

so for the mean time, please enjoy your days~

because next year, you won't have free time like you're having now~

ok..tengah dilema~

should i or shouldn't i buy a polaroid?
:D

life as we know it

this post is not related to Josh Duhamel and Katherine Heigl movie~~duhh

life as we know it..

hurm..

what do we actually know about life?

so far i can list 2...

1. mysterious

2. challenging

1.Mysterious...

we'll never know what will happen in our lives..in the future..

only Allah knows everything that lies ahead..

but us?as a human being..none..

everything is a mystery...

unpredictable...

yesterday or yesteryear stories will remain the same..as we can never go back to those non-rewindable moments

today..drawing a fine line between yesterday and tomorrow..the present moment telling "what i have done" and "what will i do"

life=future=mystery

everything happens for reasons

reasons yet to be discovered..

2. Challenging..

you tell me..

every moment in your life is a challenge..

starting from waking up..is a Great Challenge..i would say..

the challenge to open your eyes..to move out of your bed...

even to fall asleep at night is also a challenge...

when your body really needs a rest but your eyes cant keep them shut..

it's a challenge..

no need to talk about other extravagant challenges you faced in your daily lives..

but again..

take this challenges as gifts from Allah..

to keep you strong..

and make you stronger...day by day

hot issue

hell yeah~~~

All Blacks won the RWC '11..

and this is the hottest issue in 2011...

the Kiwis won the championship since 1987..yeah..i wasn't even born at that time..so..after 24 years..they claimed the victory..

watching the game, All Blacks vs. France was a very nerve-wrecking moment for me..

although i was watching the game alone..while my lil bro was sleeping - tired of camping~

i considered myself getting depression stage 3..and it was a neck-to-neck match between NZ and France..

but the All Blacks defended their positions till the end of the game.. 8-7..

if you're All Blacks supporter, and you didn't feel a thing while watching the game..

i guess there's something wrong with you :P

dang i miss the moments watching the games at eden park..

7-Richie McCaw with Webb Ellis cup~ thumbs up for the captain~~~ *woot woot*

they should have let SBW play from the beginning~~~ T_T...

it's ok Sonny~~will always rooting for you :P

so..

apart from the All Blacks winning RWC'11..

there's another hot issue that will never be forgotten~~

guess what? :D
the most epic moment in history where SBW's jersey was ripped off while playing against Tonga

and his ripped shirt got more cheer than a try..

why??haha...i tell you why....

halamak..longan baju den koyak~camno nie?

nak buek camno laie..main yolah..koyak pon koyak la...

dah dipanggil den kono bukak baju pulak..tuka jersey baru~~~

kotat pulak jersey nie..tak ko susah den nak pakai~~nasib baek ado acik nolong den pakai...

ok..den boleh main semulo~~~ :D

you see...

if you were watching it wit astro beyond and you have the PVR..definitely you would like to replay that moment :P

what makes him the hottest player ever??

he's a muslim :D

anyways..

congrats All Blacks!!

p/s: can't imagine if SBW really speak nogori~~~ahhaha