finally found d love of my life

huhuu..well..i have new love of my life..
hwan hee + tamaki still in my mind..juz add new collection..hahahha..
he's name is Robert Pattinson....
well..1st time met him..didnt realize dt much..coz..mke pon cm knk2 je tym tue..but..
2nd tym i met him..i wondered.."mcm pnh ku lihat..tp di mana ya??"hehhe...so..i looked at him..n cant help myself from smiling all d day..hehhehe....i met him (literally) in TWILIGHT..he's da hero...n at dt tym..t told myself..i would rather 2 hv a protective+charming+handsome+cute+awesome+hotness vampire as my BF rather than human..hahahah..fyi..die pnah blakon dlm harry potter as err..ap nme nye tue yg mati tu dlm goblet of fire...owh..cedric..wahh..xsangke..die da membesa mnjdi seorg yg amt handsome..huhuhu...n yg mnambhkn lg gue jth cinta sma robert..beside of his look, his characteristics in dt muvie..o i think i act fall in luv wif edward cullen...huhuu..cant resist his hotneesssssss n awesomenessssssss..hehhehe

my love!!

*******JEPONG*******

JEPONG-des

date: 28 November 2008

venue(s): Hotel Istana, Monorail Raja Chulan, Monorail KL Central, KL Central, Money Changer KL Central, LRT, KLCC, AQUARIA KLCC, LRT Dang Wangi, Monorail Bukit Nenas
group 2 class 4: Kasuya YOTA, Naito YUYA, Ushizawa KOYA, Sato YUTA, Ishii RYOUSUKE, Sano TAKAhiro, Hiano JUNKI, YONEyama Masahiro
gender: BOYS (17y.o)


kehidupan seorang pemandu pelancong

we r supposed 2 gather at istana hotel at 8.00 am huhu..so..dgn sungguh nervosa nye...kmi (me n my kazen) smpi kt hotel at 7.30 n we dunnoe wut 2 do...huhu..n we hv 2 wait 4 my kazen's fren sya....huhu..den we went 2 da ballroom..waaa..nmpk rmi nye dak2 jepong.. tho they all were only 16-17..but dey look sooooooo matured..huahuahu...den..my kazen's fren, anas asked me whether i wanna b da tourist huide o not coz 1 of da boy couldnt make it on dt day..so..i got 8 boys in my group..my kazen gt 6 gurls..huhuuh..so...8.35..we entered d ballroom..waaa...dunnoe which group belongs 2 me...huhu..den i saw some of da boys wif big size..n naughty faces (wuaa..xmo la dpt yg nakal2)..n thank god..i gt boys..yg teramat..err..wut they call..KAWAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII...hehhehhe..

Rules u must know if u wanna b a tourist guide
#00 prepare ur mind bout wut kind of kids u'll hv 2 look afta (hehe..seb baek dpt yg CUTE+BAEK)
#1 msg o make a phone call to ur frens...kacau dem from their sweet dreams early in da morn..hahhaha (diz can help u 2 reduce ur nervosa state..n reaally worked!!)

p/s: sowie mard..hhahah..suare nmpk nau mamai

sowie 2 cikin jge...hahah..n kamm...n sume..hehe
#211 mark d most significant place o most xtraordinary place as meeting point..so if dey lost o gone wif d wind=SHOPPING..dey'll noe where 2 go
#415 just ask their names (2 show some politeness) tho u'll hv 99.9% possibilities of not remembering which names blongs to who's
p/s:most of them hv similar names...plus their looks..haha

ni la tmpt meeting point plg significant bg diowg..coz pokok krismas yg bso...
#279 KLCC is enuf 4 5hrs trip..TRUST ME!!!
p/s: byk kejadian yg berlaku kt KLCC...esp tym kt AQUARIA..huh..4 boys were missing including YONE n YOTA yg pndi BI..huhu..yg lg 4 g msk AQUARIA...seb baek..ngam2 yg 4 tue kua..lg 2 tue dtg blk..YOTA n RYOSUKE..lg 2 (YONE n lg sowg ku xigt nme ilang = SHOPPING) tp berjye jmp kt pokok krismas ;;;significant place sesgt important
#129 make sure u hv enuf cre on dt day..so u can seek help from ur fren
p/s:hv 2 call cikin 2 translate words o meanings in japanese..huhu..cian cikin..asek kne kaco..hahha..smpi 1 thp tue..nk je wt loudspeaker bg diowg ckp ngan cikin..hoho
#331 dun EVA4237491219 let them shopping in ISetan esp if ur bringing da gurls on dt day
p/s:3owg ilang...mse da suntuk..n it was my 1st time soh akak kt info counter wt announcement of missing people
nie la bebudak yg ilang dlm ISetan tue..miyuki, yukiko n sape ntah lg sowh..seb baek dpt jmp blk

#992 u really657732980 hv 2 b gud in M3 o use calculator in ur HP
p/s: u hv 2 manage their money when it involves wif entrance fee (klo msk AQUARIA o nk naek KLTower) n tickets 4 LRT n Monorail

#905 dun wear WEDGES o HEELS!!!!
p/s: lengoh kaki ku smpi rini..huuuu

mereke yg gembire mkn kt burger king n some tapau from kfc..hnye situ je ad tmpt utk mkn..igt nk bwk mkn kt food court..skali rmi n pnoh n xde kosng la plak..lpe..lunch hour..owg opis pnoh

so...lps segale kekecohn di klcc..mr joseph...1 of assistant yg incharge dak2 nie kol soh blk..coz da pkl 4..huuhuhu..so..ktowg pon naek le LRT to dang wangi..n jln kaki plak to monorail bkt nns..da agk da kompem kne jln punye..n surprisingly amt jaoh..cian dak2 nie..sume da peloh2 da...n ktowg smpi kt hotel kol 4.30..rse cm nk jerit "YATTA!!!" je..tp kang diowg gelak kt ak plak...huuu...xsmpt nk amek last pic 2getha..coz diowg da nk kne mrh ngan ckgu diowg (err..bkn group ak je..sume) kne naek bas..diowg blah aritu jgk..coz da 4 ari diowg kt msia

Thing we dont know/ realize bout d japaneses

#10 dey (BOYS) love chocs damn much
#11 klo xsmpt nk bwk g CM utk beli souvenir from msia..COLD STORAGE KLCC pon da cukop..hahahha
#105 Bruised o bertampal di muka: doesnt mean dey involved wif gang fight
p/s: yg nie psl die maen besbol
#269 their eating habits at restaurants: they'll cleaned their rubbish( diowg akn kmskn meje tu n anto tray kt tmpt yg spttnye)
p/s: if there r 1000 of them kt msia nie..perhaps..akk2 cleaner in msia dun hv 2 do anything laa...
#313 somehow..u think..dey really drive u crazy..peningness..but at the end..a nice souvenir awaits u..;p
p/s: i gt fan fron japan, a cute mangkuk n ank kucing kecik
#319 if dey dun understand u

1. dey'll check d word in their hp (they installed dictionary)
2. get their fren (YONE o YOTA) 2 translate d words
3. o when dey dunnoe how to tell u..dey'll show u pics

nie r 2 owg bdk yg ak tnye diowg g mne lg..n terkial2 nk nyebot nme tmpt tu..so last2 skali diowg kua kn cam n tnjuk pics..hhaha..sungguh creative..hahah

#414 CUTE/ KAWAI : EVERYTHING (appearance+bedazzled pink hp+pink cam+black n PINK NY cap)p/s: refer 2 da kid wif black hat..i think his name:ryosuke..kot..ahahah
#735 SOUVENIR: anything from foreign country..i mean ANYTHING
p/s: mentos oso cn b considered s souvenir n diowg borong sakan mentos
#800 diowg nye pose amek gmba..msti nk kne wt PEACE..tp klo lki..max bley angkt sblah je tgn..klo gurl..bley wat PEACE sbyk mne yg diowg ske (2 je r da tgn pon ad 2)
#475 diowg sume xmaen r slide2 nie..sume flip..i mean..HP..hoho

manusie2 laen yg ak jumpe
1: rusyidah, 25y.o,grad from Unitar KJ
die nie 1 group ngan ak...i mean group of tour guide le..she's a nice sis..tp besa la..da nme nye pompuan..ad tendency utk lg rpt ngan sowg mmt yg bernme syed muzaffar yg msh blaja nmpk matured..but i'm not interested..hhaha..so..terserempak tym kt cold storage tym dak2 nie beli "souvenir"..die ckp..
"haih..mcm anjing n kucing"
ak pon ckp la
"mcm ayam n itik"
(lg seswai kot..hehheh..)

2: anonymous kid/boy, age dunnoe..mcm lbey kuang ak je tp die pggl ak kak, baek, sopan
1st jmp kt money changer KLCC..ad mslh xbley nk tuka duet rm to yen kt situ..kne ad 200 bru bley tka..so die tnye ak nk wt cmne..ak ckp r nk g tka kt cntral..n die ckp
"g skali la ek"
tp die chiow dlu
2nd jmp..kt dpn kaunter lrt KLCC...die brator dpn selang 2owg ngan ktowg...die tego dlu n ckp
"la..nape xsoh bli kan skali je tadi?"
huhu..lpe plak nk mnx num phone..hahah

fakta menarik:
1: subconsciously, u'll speak Malay wif dem..cth nye:
"jom"..."meh sini"
haha...walaupon diowg xphm..still dey'll follow cuz we usually say d words wif sign language..hahah...
2: learned lots of new words either from cikin o from da kids..hehhe..asek dga diowg ckp "wakana"=xphm...ahhah
3: abes je prog tue..mne2 ak tgk owg cine kt msia nie..ak rse mcm ak nmpk owg jepong (adkh ak phobia?trauma?o OBSESS??)
4: trust me..u'll enjoy looking at their faces when they were trying hard 2 explain things 2 u (dunnoe if they hv d same feeling when dey looked at me so confused 2 communicate wif dem ;P)

yg nie bkn rule tp kompem punye

i love ol of dem n starting to miss dem!!!!!!!!

kezaliman

dunia..dunia...
pelik kan..
dalam orang semua sebok2 mencri keamanan...
dalam orang semua sebok2 mencri bantuan...
makin banyak promosi aman dunia....
makin banyak kezaliman melanda...

mata asek tertumpu pada yang menderita...
telinga asek memerhati pada yang sengketa...
hingga terlupa....hingga alpa..
kekejaman dan kezaliman mula bermaharajalela..

zalim tidak semestinya perang..
zalim tidak seharunya pincang..

dalam sedar x sedar...
zalim ada di sekeliling kita...
dalam sedar x sedar..
zalim itu adalah kita....

kalau asek nak menunding jari..
siapa salah siapa betol..
siapa mangsa siapa pemangsa..
sampai esok takkan habis..
sampai mati takkan terbela..
kalau asek bertikam lidah..

zalim..
cermin diri sendiri...
tepuk dada tanya iman..
cukup suci kah kita...
untuk mengherdik manusia lain..
cukup bersih kah kita..
untuk asek mencaci owg lain...

zalim..
berpura-pura alim..
malangnya alim-alim kucing..
mengapa perlu sanjung..
pada orang yang ternyata zalim..
sudah terang lagi bersuluh..
cuba menyorok kesalahan yang rapuh..
bagai menarik benang dalam tepung..
bagai menangguk di air keruh..
bagai mencuri tape terkepung..
tak payah la...
sedarlah..
diri kita pon xsehebat mana..
akal kita pon xsekuat mana..
hati kita pon xsecerdik mana..

manusia...
walaupun asal usulnya dri moyang yg sama...
walaupun asal keturunannya anak cucu adam..
namun tetap..
punya keinginan dan kehendak yang berbeza..
citarasa mungkin sama tapi xsemua..
dan setiap manusia itu punya haknya..
jangalah di caci manusia itu..
hanya kerana tidak mengikut kehendakmu..
mengherdik tak semena pada manuisa yang lain..
memaki tak tentu hala tanpa hujung pangkalnya..
takkan lah..
kalau manusia itu tak seperti kita..
maka dia seorang yang gila...
pikir-pikirlah..

zalim..
sedar tak sedar..
zalim pada diri sendiri..
asek nak mengagung2kan si penzalim..
bagai menegakkan benang yang basah..
entah ape yang merasuk diri..
entah ape yang mengaburi hati...
mengikut sahaja kehendak si penzalim..
cuba menutupi lohong hitam si penzalim..
baguslah..
angkat lah..
sanjunglah..
penzalim kesayangan...

sedar xsedar..
banyak nya penzalim atas dunia..
banyak nya penzalim di alam maya..
sedar x sedar..
penzalim dan kezaliman ada di sekeliling kita..
sedar xsedar..kitalah penzalim yang sebenarnya..

pikir-pikirlah sendiri

the top10 n top 5

hurmm....
things dt i'v done dring dis hols

#1 tgk tv..hahha..gt nthg 2 do
#2 exercising....n..da results..i managed 2 lose 2kg!!!!hhaahahhahahah....
#3 blogging
#4 reading novels (lompat2..still not in da mood utk really2 bce da books)
#5 net surfing
#6 babysitting
#7 doing house chores.....(wif 2 lil mons...wut d u expect??)
#8 drinking (lots of plain water=diet)..hehhe
#9 daydreaming
#10 nt 2 4gt..today i cut my sis's hair..hahah..developed new skill now..hehehhhe n new style oso


i think enuf wif d top 10 things dt i'v done so far..hehhehe..

top 5 upcoming events in my lyfe

#1 b a tourist guide 4 a bunch of japanese on diz 28
#2 pay another visit to da uncle aka doc gg diz 27..4 further treatment..hehhe
#3 go back 2 kdh..celebrate rye aji there diz 28 oso..stay der 4 a week
#4 go to sya's bros n sis weds....
#5 attend DRIVING classes..hahahhahhahahahahhahaha ;P

aku...

aku rase....

#1 kompius
-kompius dgn idop
-kompius ngan perasaan
-kompius ngan sesetengah orang kt atas muke bumi nie

#2 jeles
-tgk kengkawan gembire
-tgk menatang pon happy je
-tgk owg laen bley tdo dgn nyenyak nye

#3 rimas
-ble dlm keadaan sesak ngan org rmi dlm keadaan yg sesak dn sempit
-ble ad byk nyamuk kt sekeliling n asek menghirup drh ak
-ble xde karan huhuhu

#4 happy
-tgk owg yg ak syg happy2 belake
-tgk sume owg cerie
-tgk result exm yg membangge kn (sape yg xhappy)

#5 bersyukur
-masih hidup smpi skang
-masih ad kwn2 yg syg ak n ak syg diowg
-masih boley tros kn idop untk capai matlamt ak

...

ap yg ak rse sekarang is...sukar untuk diungkapkan...............
susah untuk ditafsirkan...
apatah lagi untuk diluahkan dalam kata-kata.....



P/s: senang cakp...i'm emotionally unstable..ahahhah

buta~~

buta....
siapa yang buta sebenarnya??
hati atau akal?
jiwa atau minda?
siapa yang membutakan siapa?
salah siapa?
bila gagal memilih intan antara kaca?
manusia sering tegar...
angkuh untuk menyatakan salah sendiri..
ibarat baling batu sorok tangan..
bagai lembu punya susu sapi dapat nama
sering menyalahkan keadaan..
sering mencari alasan..
agar dapat melepaskan diri dari belengu kebuntuan..
akhirnya..
yang menjadi mangsa adalah keadaan..
sedangkan
manusia itu sendiri yang mewujudkan keadaan sedemikian..


buta....
begitu juga dengan cinta...
manusia sering bilang..
cinta itu buta..
dan juga boleh membutakan..
namun
akan hakikat nya..
cinta itu datang nya dari mana??
turun nya dari mana??
lahir nya dari mana??
kalau bukan dari perasaan..
yang dikarang
yang dikait
yang disemai
oleh manusia itu sendiri?!
oleh itu..
siapa yang buta?
cinta itukah yang buta?
atau manusia itu sendiri kah yang buta??

buta....
mana mungkin bisa cinta itu buta..
walhal sebenarnya
manusia itu sendiri yang buta
leka di ulit gembira..
terawang awang..
di buai mimpi-mimpi indah..
hanyut dengan angan-angan sendiri..


manusia....
jangan kau salah kan keadaan
kerana gagal memiliki cinta
jangan kau salah kan cinta
konon nya membuta kan minda
salah kan diri sendiri
kerana terlalu leka
kerana terlalu asyik
dalam dunia khayalan fana


namun....
jangan kerana hampa oleh cinta..
jangan kerana ingin menutup pintu sengketa..
tertutup terus pintu kebahgiaan..
mungkin..
kau belum temui..
intan yang paling menyerlah antara delima
permata yang tercantik antara manikam
jangan dek kerana nila setitik..
rosak susu sebelanga..
jangan kerana cinta tak berputik..
hilang kegembiraan selamanya..

~~~difficulty~~~~

dulu2..mase kte bru lahir..bru nk celik..bru nk nmpk dunia nie..mak bapak yg slalu wat decision utk kte..nk bg mkn ap...nk pki bju ap...nk anta sek kt mne n skola mne yg terbaek utk kte...ble kte da start becakap..mule blajar bertatih...tyme tue..sdr x sdr..kte da mule blaar utk wt pilihan sndrik..mne arh kte nk jln..antre mak ngan pakcik yang ske skt kte..kte rather plh mak kte..ble kte mule msk skola...byk pilihn yg kte kne tentukn sndrik..nk pilih kawaan..pilih subjek yg besh yg kte mint..pilih cekgu mne yg besh n mne yg ske menyakitkn ati etc..smpi la kte da besar pnjg cmnie..n da msok 20 da pon..cme nye..pnah x kte terpk..sme ad..pilihn yg kte wt tue..btol atau salah..baik atau tidak..bijak kah kte dlm mempertimbangkn sesuatu perkara??betol kah keputusan yg kita buat??adkh ap yg kta pilih tue adlh yg terbaik utk kita n utk semue??pnh x kte menyesal ngan keputusan kte???n kdg2..pnah x kte terpk yg klo bley kte nk ulang blk mse n xnk wt kesalhn yg sme spye kte dpt wt keputusn yg tepat???...

rse nye..manusia yg bnr2 manusia..sume akn menghadapi mslh yg sme...
manusia itu tidak sempurna namun sentiasa mencari kesempurnaan...
sampai kdg2..kite xnmpk..dlm kesempurnaan tu ad kecacatan..
dan dalam kecacatan tue ad kesempurnaan..

di jadikn hawa dr rusuk kiri adam yang bengkok..bukti manusia itu tidak sempurna
agar adam dapat melindungi dan menjage serta membimbing ke arah jln yg lurus..

kewarasan akal kadang kala tidak dapat membendung kebuntuan hati...
satu masalah yang sering dihadapi oleh manusia selagi mana ia bernama anak cucu adam..

yang dinamakan itu manusia adalah hamba tuhan yang maha esa yang maha mengetahui segala kejadian..
semua ini adalh suatu ketetapan oleh Illahi..
sebagai manusia..siapalah kita yang untuk menetukan..yang cuba menilik masa hadapan..
perkara yang bakal terjadi..
semua nya berbalik kepada fitrah kehidupan manusia yang tidak lari dari kesilapan..
kadangkala kita sangka kn yang kita telah membuat satu keputusan yang bijak dan betul..
namun..apabila suatu bencana menimpa..tanpa kita duga..
baru kita sedar..bahawa selama ini kita sudah tersalah pilih jalan...


kata orang..sesal dahulu pendapatan sesal kemudian tidak berguna..
namun..manusia sering lupa..
sudah terhantuk baru tergadah..
jangan kerana tersalah buat pilihan..
kita menyesal..dan cuba untuk kembali mencipta satu cerita yang kesudahannya mustahil untuk dicapai...

sebagai manusia..
yang mampu kita lakukan..hanyalah
kembali ke pangkal jalan..mulakan hidup baru..yang lepas biarlah lepas..
belajar untuk hidup bertauladankan kesalahan yang pernah dilakukan..
supaya pisang tidak berbuah dua kali...

~al-fatihah~

tanggal 21 November 2008, jam 11.40 pg...
satu detik menyayat hati telah melanda kehidupan ku...
satu tragedi yang meninggalkan kesan luka yang mendalam hingga ke hari ini..
ak telah kehilangan..insan yang paling berarti dalam hidup ku..
yang meneamani tidur malam ku
yang menyinari siang hidup ku..
penghibur duka dan lara di kala sepi menghantui ku..
peneman dikala suka berbicara...
oleh itu..
marilah kita sama-sama mennyedekahkan al-fatihah kepada
GIGI ku....
hooooooooooooooooooooohh...

smlm ak g klinik gigi..
n ak still dok berkira2 lg smpi la msk dlm bilik doc tue (ak asek tersasul pggl die uncle je)
hohoho..
skali die tnye mau cabut atau au kasi tampal..
ak ckp la
ak: uncle u tgk la dlu, bley tampal ka kna cabut
uncle @ doc gigi: u ada sakit ka??
ak: dlm minggu ni dia asek saket2 ja uncle
uncle: klo itu mcm kna kasi cabot la
ak:(termanggu keseoragn..huuu..kna cabut jgk)
uncle: kna thn sikit r..dia ad skt sikit sja (sambil membius ak..2 tmpt)
ak:(uiks..kebas..ak da xrsa ak nye lidah pon..n uncle tue da bia kn ku keseorgn)
uncle:(die dtg blk slps bbrpa min) thn ha..sikit sja sakit (smbil membius ku sbyk 3kli..)
ak: aah..aah..(sakit dowh..sumpah xtpu)
uncle: thn..u jgn wat keras nnt dia lagi sakit (smbil memegang sejenis alat yg kelihatan spt playar)
ak: aah...aaah..(hampir menitis kn air mata..tp cube mengawal..malu weyh)
uncle: kjp ah (die meronggah gigi ku seakan2 meronggah paip menngunakan perengkuh paip)
ak:(uiks..da cabut ke belum ni)
uncle: u mau tgk x gigi u???(smbil meenunjukkn gigi ku)


waah~gigi ku sgh pnjg ke dlm rupanya...dn meninggalkn kesan lobang yg besar dlm mulut ku aka gusi ku..smpi mkn pon mknn asek msk dlm lubang tue..tp ofkos r..kne kumur..

pengajaran: hargai lah insan yg tersayang...klo xmo jd mcm ak..
sobsob

now empty

now
its empty
no more laugh, no more tears
now
its empty
everyone has leave, everyone has gone
its EMPTY
so long my dear friends
think i'm gonna miss you, damn much
though its empty
i will full this emptiness
with our memories
and pour lots of love
so our friendship
will last forever

ku memblog lagi buat kali kedua nya untuk harini..bapa ku belum tiba lagi..lalu ku tenung kertas2 nota kamilah yang ditinggalkan di atas meja. lalu ku mengambil sebatang pena bersama komik dik cerdas..ku fikir ku ingin membaca komik itu..namun hati tidak berkeinginan..lalu ku coret kan segala isi hati yang terbungkam didada ku yang mula menjadi semakin sebak, sayu dan pilu. oh mengapa??

dunnoe y i'm being so emotional today..i've been crying alone all by myself..as suddenly i thought bout my frens..being unable to control myself..tears started running down my cheeks. n i still waiting for my dad..i'm sitting on cikin's bed, where i used to stay here watching WGM (we gt so crazy with WGM) with her..just now i went to 505be, where i used to hang out there, trying to find a room for me to sleep when i started being insomniac..chit chatting with da 505bians and where most of our conversation took place..unable to go inside my room..2 pay d last visit to my beloved 505d..coz d makciks yg dtg for kursus during hols were staying there..so couldnt say goodbye to her (my room) i sat on a chair at the hall..looking around..watching da ceiling, da dirty fan (i bet its been a long long time not cleaning it..n i cant rememba if by any chance we cleaned it or not).. we used to study 2getha there esp during xm..group discussion..spend lots of majong papers and put on the wall where evrybody came 2 our house 2 read wut we'v discussed..but most of the time the hall was the place for us to exhibit our madness n crazyness rather than studying or reading santrock or ormrod or woolfolk..gosh..am gonna miss all of these...

the notes dt i'v been writing



well..gtg..hv 2 seap now coz in any minute my dad will arrive...

~~LEavINg~~

all my bags are packed i'm ready to go
i'm standing here in cikin's room
i hate 2 wake cikin up 2 say gud bye (though myb die yg akn blk dlu...mard da blk daa..n cikin btol2 tgh tdo tyme nie)
but da down is breaking its early morn (da afternoon daa)
i'm waiting for my dad 2 blow the horn
already i'm so lonesome i could die
there's so many times i'v let u guys down
so many times i'v played around
but darlings now they dont mean a thing
every place i go i think of u guys
every song i sing i sing for u guys
when i come back i hope we still b frens!!!
so kiss me n smile 4 me
tell me dt u guys will wait 4 me
hold me like u guys never let me go
coz i'm leaving on a jet plane(next year)
next 2years i will be back again
owh babes i hate 2 go (though i'm so excited 2 go there)..

seriously guys...i'm gonna mish u guys damn much..esp those dt am not gonna see nxt yea (dun worry i'll find u in aussie o welli) huhuhu..so sad when evryone started to leave dis ouse (505B)..so many memories dt we'v created here..d bond between us..so many things happened dis year..we laughed..we fought..we cried(capa jgn wat2 lpe plak ko nangeh tym ko dpt marjon..hahah)..we enjoyed our life..mkn meggie telo rmi2..outing 2getha..gurls-day-outs.. watching muvies tym mkn afta blk from pasr mlm..duhh..gonna miah psr mlm kerinchi too.. we studied 2getha n passed d exm 2getha...but nxt yea..we r going 2 live separately..live diff kind of live..having our own journey though some are goin 2 da same place..but we'll never noe wut will happen in da future dt waiting for us 2 explore n discover on our own..pape pon..all da best 2 u guys..have fun there..n 4gt me not..things could change n might not be da same again..world can change as it keeps moving n it might not b da same again..people might change for good or for bad..but 1 thing dt i dun wanna change n i wish will never change..our frenship..d bond between us..will never change..but will become stronger than eva..luve u guys....

505Beda.....
proves of our hard works..hahha

kitchen...kenangan msk 2getha
pangkin yg da repoot d mkn dek pns ujan..

~lots of love from me xoxo~

~Sunway Attack~

yosh...
err..last thursday aka 14 nov..me..cikin..mard n aliaa went to sunway lagoon..hahha...da lme ngidam nk g ctu..n finally..hahha......aigoo...pening pale..nnt r smbg tls blk..


hohooh..sudah ok..hheheh....well2..b4 tue..sesmpi nye ktowg kt dpn entrance sunway..peroot memsg da ~kriok~ so kami pon mmbhgi tugas...mard n cikin g bli tiket 1st while me n aliaa went 2 gloria jeans..jejln kt gloria jeans...i met azizah mahza..hahah..spe2 yg tgk drama tv3 aka SPA-Q knal r kot..hoho..msk dlm gloria jeans...ktowg nmpk..huuuuuuu...fazreen n norish karman outside da window..hohoho..ad shooting 4 SPA-Q 2....huhuhu..so dunnoe r whether me n aliaa msk ke x dlm shoot tue..haahhah...k..den ktowg g dpt kn ktowg nye tag n g j.co (huhuhu..loving it)...mkn kt situ...pai peyot kembong ~ngeee...hahhahah...

well...sesmpi sne..ujan..huhu..tp xlbt sgt./..so ...basically d weather was good..xde r pns terik yg akn menyebbkkn kulit ktowg ibrt bru kua dri oven...hhohoh..abes pamphlet sunway tue ktowg jd kn payong..hhoho..1st ride yg ktowg naek was cawan yg putar2..tue..yosh sye putar halim...at 1st..me naek wif aliaa n mard ngan cikin..hahha...punye r sakan diowg pusing smpi laju gle..m n aliaa cm pelik y dieowg pnye lg lju dr ours..hhoho..so ktowg naek lg d 2nd time..xpuas ati..hahah..n still diowg lg lju..knape ye???hohoh..so d 3rd time naek skali ngan mard n cikin..owh rahsie nye..diowg start pusing dr awl lg..hahhamard tue da tau pening lagi nk pusing laju2..hahhah..last2 die yg pening..n muntah2..hahhahah...ktowg naek vultures (supposed 2 b ride 4 kids..hahahha..ala burung yg bley naek trn naek trn tue)..but....huhu..unfortunately cikin's xnaek2..hahah..die punye r excited nk naek..but last2 mine yg naek ats n xtrn2..hahaha...3x ktowg naek vultures...afta dt naek butch(kasut koboi yg berputar dgn ligt nye) utk 3x..coz abg2 kt c2 xnk bg ktowg trn..hhoh.....

well..kt sunway..i'v managed 2 overcome my fears n phobias..hoho..i oweys said dt i'm claustrophobic, acrophobia, hydrophobic..gosh..so much phobia 4 me..hahahha..but..hehhe..i did it..i managed 2 ride pirate revenge for 2times(1st time ttp bkk mte..but 2nd time wit eyes opened..hehe cz we made an expressionless bet)..tomahawk 2times oso wit eyes opened...roller coaster wit eyes opened oso..hahahhaha..i felt so incredible..haha..at 1st i tot xmo naek r sume tue..tp..ble lg nk try kn n wut r d purpose of going there n not trying evrythings there..hohoho..n ktowg berjye naek bridge yg sgt pnjg (even abg yg keje kt sunway tue pon xtau bape pjng bridge tue)..hohoh...n a tragedy happened where cikin's hp (Sony Ericsson) jth from level4..n d other one (Nokia) almost jth jge but berjye d slmtkn by me..hahahha...and amazingly..dt hp still can b used up until now..hoh hebat!!!....hahahhahaahah...ktowg memanfaat kn sepenoh2nye mse kt sunway and abes kn sume (wlopon xsume) rides tpt pd pkl 6.00..hohoohoh...







pirates revenge (expressionless bet)













tomahawk (mard menggelongsor di dlm nye)

my lenovo cd/dvd player's broken sobsob

wuarghh..tensen..
last n8 i was using my lappy 2 burn dvds 4 my fren...iskisk...n evrythg's stiil or8...
den..dz morning..err..not morning bt aftrnoon act..suddenly it's not working..n gv a weird sound..
i tried 2 play a dvd...bt d lappy couldnt detect d dvd..n....d dvd.............rosak..wuarghhhhhh..
luckily it's still under warranty...bt i 4gt where i put d receipts..hoh...so hv 2 go back 1st n find d purchase receipt..huhu..den my dad n h 2 go 2 lowyatt r..nk repair..aiigoooo.....tensen..double tensen..though i think dts it's nothing..bt still..i noe..it's smthg..indescribable..so..i spent d whole evening..sleeping..huhu..jz dun wanna think bout it...

long vacation 911-1011

~ our LONG VACATION ~
..............................................

date : 9 November - 10 November 2008
venue : palace of golden horses, palace spa & beach resort, the mines shopping fair, serdang KTM, midvalley


huuu....
tanggal 9 november aka 911..ktowg ad grand dinner...so..the nine of us..o shud i call as 505bedau (me, kamm, dayane, syafa, mard, mimie, illie, ckin n cuna) decided to book a room for us on dt day/night..hoho...amat lah meleceyhkn jike ktowg g naek bas..da r sowg2 seap bkn maen lame..hoohooh...
so...
ktowg berpecah..haha..g naek 2 kete..
1. with ckin's kazen - ckin, dayane, syafa n cuna..
diowg bertolak kol 12.45..n end up berlegar2 di
sekitar mines tue n singgah mcd 4 lunch

2. with mard's bro - mard, ak mimie, kamm n illi..whahaha..even abg mard pon cm caye x caye je bley nk muat 5 owg dlm kete tue..hohoh


phewww......
skali ktowg yg smpi dlu daa...hohoh..so ktowg lepak kt lobby dlu at d 1st place..mimie da Zzzzz.. so smentare nk tggu apih confirm kn ngan akk yg incharge ngan blk, mard illi n i went for a sight seeing..ahaha...kunun2 nk tgk tmpt dinner ktowg...so..we took d chance to take our pics..heheh







pemandangan yg lawa + org yg lawa = gmba yg lawa ;p
that's all i can say right now..hehhehhe...seb bek my hp was working at dt tym..myb coz proper lighting..cuace yg cerah......b4 hujan at d evening...huhu

so..sepetang dlm blk 5116..ad yg tdo...(mimie r juare)..iron bju..mndi..tgk tv..membuffer kuku n berebot2 lwn spe plg kilat n tnjuk bwh table lamp...hohoho...woow/\..toilet nye amat r besa..ak n illi da bjt dok dlm bath tub tu r..as if we'r kyle XY..ngehehe..pengaroh tv...tp..bley msk sowg je..hehheh,..so had 2 take turn r nk mndi ke nk ap skali pon..

da nk dkt kol 6 tue..sume da start seap..make up r pe lg...ad yg da pnoh cermin..xckp kt sink..cermin kt bath tub pon ktowg sapu..ngeheheh...




n..sempat lg r nk amek pic b4 kua dr blk..
n nie r resul nye!!!;p
p/s:spot plg fav amek pic--->cermin coz bely amek pic sume owg tnpe melupekan encik kamera..hehehhe











sbena nye..byk je pics yg ktowg amek..n byk mnde yg brlaku tym dinner
1. ak kne bg vase kt mdm satinah!!
2. ak kne bg belon plk kt mdm satinah n bwk die naek ats stage!!!
3. kmi mencilok mknn...n table ktowg G r yg plg pnohh ngan mknn!!!!;p
4. bergamba skn..n thanx 2 mr photogrpher xberbyr:aiman kne amek 40 shots (xgrte)
5. mlg xbersiren=hp mimie ilang n wt spotcheck kt mmt bangla..tp xjmp...sian mimie

.....................................................................
pape pon..mlm itu sungguh penat...huhu

p/s: xpuas ati coz cover buku dinner tue diowg ltk primary pic kt fs..which is not my face!!!!

syafa memule tue bajet suweet n romantik abes r...tdo + gayyot dlm locker..hahhaha...tp last2 tdo ats ktl gk..dayane r insan plg awl tersungkur berdengkur d medan empuk...ak n mard tersepit kt antr 2 katil..ats lantai!!huhu..tp ktowg berjye bolot 2slimut yg tebal..hahah..sian diowg sume sijuk..keskes...b4 tdo konon vote sape yg kne trn g breakfst..spatotnye kamm n illi..tp last2..sape pon xtrn..chet..nguhuhuhuh....so sume kne berseap coz by 1145 ktowg da nk kne chiow out from d room..tp cuna da menggunakn 1jm dlm toilet..ap yg di belek nye xtau r..hehhehe...

kamm n mard yg check in ats nme fiffy..so diowg r yg kne g check out..ngehehhe...
illi da blk ngan meghe n lee...
so tgl r ktowg 8 owg..
ktowg nk g mines...so we took water txi..kne rm8 sowg..agk affordable..hehehe...
pic nie pkck water taxi tue yg amek..seap die plak yg suggest amek part nie..hehhe..mmg da berpengalmn amek pic kt jeti nie kot..so..pkck bley join azar g photoshoot sony r..hehhe...










owg yg plg xcited naeek wtr txi nie..cuna r kot..coz xabes2 menikmati pemandangn n bjt die tgh dok ats titanic..n mlg nye naem xde..hehhehhe









ktowg stop kt bali...hahah..jaoh gle r ..from plce to bali..bajet memoirs of bali da..tp siyes..tmpt tue mmg lawa..rse cm bkn kt kl..bak kte cuna.."lawa jgk msia nie"...hahahha..swimming pool pon ala2 tepi pntai da......









~~welcome to BALI~~ole-ole BALI~~













again...kowg nek wtr txi from mines to ktm serdang...n kunun nk anvtr lg..nk naek bas r blk ipba...skali tggu punya tunggu...xde jgk bas..ak n mard da seap naek 1 bas nie yg nk g psr seni...n bas tue da seap jln da..bebdk yg laen sume mennonong je tgk ktowg dr bwh..bkn nye nk ckp xjd naek bas tu o nk soh ktowg trn ke hape...huhu..seb bek smpt r ak n mard mlompat trn..last2..naek komuter gk ktowg..msk dlm ktm..ktowg berkmpong tgh2 tu..seap dok bersile..hehhe..xde seat..cuna smpt lg nk g menyempit n dok kt krusi..bru je train jln die da krohhh da..Zzzzz..n xsdr ap yg blaku dlm ktm tue...tp xde r smpi abes ktowg dok kt bwh tue..da kosong tue..pepndi r cri seat..tp tue r cuna..sblah die ksg..bkn nye die sdr n nk cop kn utk bg owg ddk ke ap..die menten tdo..seb bek tym da smpi mid tue syafa igt cuna tgh tdo..klo x..sah2 cune kne tgl lg wt 2nd tym..hhehehe..mls r nk cte psl die ttgl 1st tym..hehheh..so..dr mid ktowg amek cab..n blk ke ipba...



wlopon perjlnn nie juz 1 ari je..tp ktowg sume rse da tggl kn blk tue cm da lme..cm da 1minggu xblk blk aka ipba..cm pg ntah mne2 tmpt yg jjaoh..pdhal...1 ari tue je pon..huhu..blk mmg KO r..hehhe..pape pon...mish u guys!!!

my new n latest BF!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaha

nie nme die Gin Wigmore..selaen die menyanyi lgu fav dak2 umah 505beda aka 'undder my skin'..die jge menyanyi lgu fav sye..aka 'THESE ROSES'..try r dga..siyes besh..hohohooh
















huhu..diz hottie is my new n latest bf..ahhahah...tamaki kun...huahuahu..he's damn hensem n macho!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

these roses...

well.. so much that i want to say or write..
but..i juz dun have d mood right now.. n juz wanna keep update my blog..ghuhuhuhu..
plus..so much dat i wanna tell till i could not choose which one to tell..hoho...

btw..theses roses by gin wigmore is seriously cool..beside her "wakeup song" under my skin..which act syafa's wakeup call..hahha.. the similarity between syafa n gin is that both of them are freak (ANEH)..hahaha...trust me..n i bet u think the way i do..hahahah

jya ne!!

Black book entry 14 August (gonna miss them)

mm...pejam celik pejam celik...
n sedar xsedar..
da almost 2weeks we'v been to la salle for sbe..
n 2mrw is going to be our last day at la salle...
though life is quite hectic there as most of the students are uncontrollable blabla...
but...i think i'm gonna miss them..
the experience is priceless..n you cannot buy it anywhere...
well..
2day..act we supposed to take a relieve class for 5science..but...
the teacher that entered b4 us seemed like she's really enjoyed teaching that class..
until she didnt realized our presence...huhu..
so we waited outside of the classroom...for about an hour...huhu..
last2 d 4 of us da give up..so ap lg..
routine harian..amek kunci from miss aida n g lepak kt library..hehhe...
so..
today we hv 2 stayback..nk kne tlg wt persiapan pentas for 2mrw's event..
hri anugrh ko-ko..huhu...
agk mengejutkn..cz sume nye students yg kne wt..
i mean..SEMUE!!!!meaning that..
the teachers juz leave it to the students..
n if they disapprove, they hv to do it all over again..
huhu..cyan diowng..
luckily we were there to help them..huhu
so stay lame la jgk..
huhu smpi kool 4.30 i think..
aiyark..hahah...





p/s:wuargh!!!!!!!!!!!tensen nye!!!!my hp wt hal lg,...
sume pic yg amek arini..sume nye ilang!!!!!wuargh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Black book entry 12 August (this love)

this love, the veronicas

I, I,

I can see it in your eyes

Taste it in our first kiss

Stranger in this lonely town (this lonely town)

Save me from my emptiness (save me)

You took my hand

You told me it would be ok

I trusted you to hold my heart

Now fate is pulling me away, from you

Even if I leave you now

And it breaks my heart

Even if I'm not around

I won't give in

I can't give up

On this love

You've become a piece of me

Makes me sick to even think

Of mornings waking up alone

Searching for you in my sheets

Don't fade, away

Even if I leave you now

And it breaks my heart

Even if I'm not around

I won't give in (won't give in)

I can't give up (can't give up)

On this love

I can't just close the door

(on this love)

I never felt anything like this before

(like this love)

Tell me the truth no matter what we're going through

Will you hold on too 'cause

Even if I leave you now

And it breaks my heart

Even if I'm not around

I won't give in

I can't give up

On this love

Even if I leave you now (leave you now)

And it breaks my heart

Even if I'm not around (not around)

I won't give in (won't give in)

I can't give up (can't give up)

I won't give in (won't give in)

I can't give up (can't give up)

On this love

...........
should i leave n move on?
should i give up on this love?

Black book entry 12 August (SAD)

well..
1 week n 1/2 for SBE is quite tiring...
the feelings are all mixed up.. i dunnoe why..
i'm happy yet i'm mad at the same tyme..
i'm excited yet i'm afraid..
it's not an easy job for me to handle the students (all boys studs)...
coz they are playful, naughty, easily off tasks (almost at all the times)....blablablabla...
hmm...
but..
somehow..i think..
SBE is not the real prob dt in my mind now act..
it's about something else...
i dunnoe..
it just makes me to think back..
whether wut i'm doing now is right or wrong..
whether i should surrender my feelings now..
or should i just wait?
i dunnoe whether it's worth for me to stay..to keep this feeling inside..
am i choosing the right decision?
am i in the right path?
before today..
i think i am brave enough...
but now..i'm not sure anymore..
i'm starting to doubt my own decision..
oh god..please show me a sign...
that's all i can ask for now..

Black book entry 29 July

hmm.. what a day...
during lecture diz morning..i didnt pay any attention at all..
what i did was...
i opened my lappy..and then ap lg..hehe..men tenet le jwpnye..
but in DKC only gt GPRS je..
so cm slow sket r d connection...
tetbe..tym LnL...mem Suguna asked question..
she used d tactic of passing around d mic..3 or 2 rows at the back..2 or 3 person next to you..blabla..
until i gt da mic..
she ws asking about..IDEAL h-smthg..i cant remember da.hehhe..thank god..b4 she asked me..i've already asked illi what was that thing all about..so i just repeat what illi had told me earlier..
-general n da result is not specific (though i even dunnoe what was that means..heheh..well..i just parroting after all)...
then..during cm..tetbe je da lecturer asked questions regarding d previous lecture aka yesterday's lessons...n again..yesterday i was dozing off..nt really dozing actually..bt i was sleepy..n i didnt pay attention..again..hehhe...so i was like klangkabut gle in finding d answers..da la xde in coursebook+i didnt bring da coursebook 2day..heheh..cz bajet xgne pon..
da la da lecturer was calling out people's names..huhuh..sume owg glabah da..cz takot name kne pgl..seb bek xkne..huhuh
then ktowg pon g le library..just amek attendance for eltm..pastue ktowg lpk kt library..waiting for LS workshop..huhu
donnoe y td tyme ls cm ngantok gle...though d topic ws about becomin a teacher..tp cm still cant capture my attention or to keep me awake..huhuhu..ngantok gle..
huhuhu..then i asked mard urut tgn le..cubit le..himpap tgn le..still ngantok gk..
heheh..ptg td g maen badminton..wif mimie, illi n che nad..huhu...
sakt tgn ku..myb bcz yesterday i played bowling for 1 1/2 games..plus badminton lg for today..so mybe da muscle cm da bengkak ke hape..dunnoe le..
k..i hv to stop now..cz gt LnL n CM's drafts to finish..hehehe..

Black book entry 27 july

-daku gila mengEDIT gamba-

huhu..well..as i mentioned b4...though i hve lots of asggmnt..but still..i dont hv da mood to do so..hehe..so...i opened my adobe photoshop..n started to edit some of my photos..heheh

huhu..this is an amateur artwork...hehe...

Black book entry 27 july

well..i know that for some people..black book is where people usually recorded the name and offense of everyone who has ever done her wrong..hohho..but not me..i just like the name..fullstop..

huhuhu..today...i spent da day doing nothing...huhu..
though i have assignments waiting to be done..hehhe..
well..this morning(26 july) we gt replacement class..for cuti raya..and my mind set ws like up side down now..
though it's saturday..but i felt like it ws friday..n today's already SUNDAY!!!!which mean..tomorrow is MONDAY...argh!!!!!i need a rest!!!huhu(wlopon i'v been sleeping d whole day long)heheh...
lots of thing to do...A-SIGH-MOND-szzzzzzzzz....hehe...
but luckily..for ms..i'v already submitted..n oral presentation for ELTM pon da lps..
infact..the evaluators hv given positive comments and they even promoted my group to other grouo..hheheh..kind of riak sket..hhehe...mau xnye..we did it last minute...tdo pon kol bpe pg ntah..and that morning..the four of us sumenye ngantok..esp me..n out of sudden..mard, mimie(they're not my groupmates for ELTM..but they were sleepy too) were accused by the lecturers for a crime that we didnt commit...TALKING???i dont see any connection between sleeping and talking..huhu..thank god the lecturers don't even knew our names..hehhehe...

Black book entry 26 july

i know that..not everybody is perfect..
but at least we try to be perfect..by respecting each other..
as people try to forgive and forget..
still..there's a person..that will never learn even a thing..
about what she's done...still..there's a person..that never realize a bout her own wrongdoings..
because for her..she only cares about what people had done bad at her..
not all the develish things she had committed..
i dont understand this kind of person..
what actually she think about others?..just a bunch of coward that afraid of her?..
as if...people wont even dare to mess with her..if so..you'll pay for the crime..
could she just imagine or at least give it a thought that..she's just a little dust in this world..
with or without her..the world is just the same..the world does not revolve around you!
but still..this fella never feels ashame..as others willing to forgive and at least try to forget her sins..the biggest mistakes ever..that some people might cannot forgive or rather forget..
who is she..to warn people..to blackmail others?come on la girl..dont be silly...
you just a human being..not god or what...
may allah will always bless this fella and bring her back to the right path..