YummyLicious

ok...

now i want something YUMMYLICIOUS!!!

RED VELVET CAKE or RED VELVET CUPCAKE!

aaaa..indeed YUMMY and DELICIOUS!

ok...this one is pretty cool too..i mean..YUMMY~

ok anyone who wants to treat me RED VELVET cake/cupcake???!!!

i will love you forever! :D

or..anyone who kind enough to bake one for me?? :D

http://bestcupcakerecipes.blogspot.com/2009/02/red-velvet-cupcake-recipe.html

wish list

wish list..

is it too soon to write one or is it too late??

naa..who cares..better late than never..never wrote one before :D

ok..

so far..right now..in my head i have thousands of wishes..but not necessarily i want them now..

it's just that what i have in my mind..that i wish i could do..or i could have..or i could be..now..tomorrow..the day after tomorrow..or in simple word=future...

well of course in a wish list, doesn't mean you have to set the date when you want to achieve your wish..right?

ok..

(they said i love to use the word OK even in my class when i'm teaching..whenever i wanted to start a new instruction or sentence..i would say..ok..sometimes it would be followed by the word "right")

well..that's just me..right?~it's not a bad thing to do it right?somehow it has become a habit~

old habit die hard~

..(trying not to write the word OK-----but i did..haha...ok..pretty lame -_-")

i won't write my list according to chronological order..

so it doesn't mean the number 1 wish is what i want now and the 100th wish will be for my future...

wow...100???seriously..we'll see..i haven't count them yet..might or might not achieve 100 wishes..

so...here we go...

nervous~

i wish

1. i could have my graduation in auckland too..(ok this is under the influence of my previous post)
2. too see and meet my long awaited peeps from auckland~lala+ema+tonton+syafiq...ok you guys seriously!!finish your stuff there and quickly come back to malaysia..can't wait to meet you guys! (gara-gara flipping through the old yet beautiful pictures of us..sobs)
3. i could finish my KISSM assignments..and i really wish that i have the strength to click open folder for the KISSM notes~hahaha...
4. i could spend more time with my mates..505bedas~~since we have less than a month before the 10 of us heading to our own fates and destinies...(ok..i know..i'm sweet..can't help it :P)
5. i will start working on February~hahaha..but on the second thought..working in May could be a good thing too..cause i could plan for activities that i've had in my head since last month...which is..
6. i could do a program or two with my students who are going to sit for big exams next year..all of them are going to be in their Form5 and Form3..so..i'm thinking of doing some activities with them and for them...something to boost their confidence~the expectations of real life outside school..the university life(this one, i was planning on inviting my other friends~88elements to help out..since all of us went to different unis and the life styles could be different, some tips etc)...to work on their communicative skills..perhaps i could bring my "Speak Up Talk More" proposal..the one that i did for my assignment~put it into practice..and see how it works..i've thinking of making something so that we (88element-my batch) could contribute something to our school~ok..for some reasons which i personally don't know the reasons are...i love my school~~~and my friends keep on saying that my fate is all about my school..what ever i do i'm going to end up there~ (few of them are betting that i will go there~~~~~)..but..i do love my school..it's just that i don't wish to be posted there...for some valid reasons~
7. i can be a good teacher...and soon...a great teacher..since the day that i realized how i love this profession, i always wanted to be a teacher who can inspire her students..to be great person~and of course..i want to be inspired by my students too~
8. i will never forget the reason why i want to be a teacher..my stands and my beliefs..as i know..what we have in our minds do not always agree with the reality..and i'm afraid that the challenges that i might get through in the future will make me forget of these reasons~
9. one day..one of my students will come to me..and say.."teacher..saya ingat lagi teacher pernah ajar saya dulu"....awww..so sweet isn't it..but it's the truth..at least it shows that he/she still remember me..it's the thought that matter~ :D
10. my handphone screen is going to survive for another 2 years at least~haiye...me and technology has never been a good friend~
11. i would be a great cook!~haha
12. i own my own car~dang...the last time i drove..it was a kembara with two driving instructors-ekwan and shedah...and i totally..ok..almost forgot everything about driving..and it's manual!!seriously need a car to practice my driving skill since my mom wont let me drive Unser or Hilux..the only "cars" at home..and partly my mistakes too~enjin mati tengah simpang etc~hahaha
13. my laptop will last for another few years~hahah...again..the technology thing~
14. i could write short stories~ i need to improve on my writing skills~haha...suddenly it reminds me of my kids' essays~
15. i will be a good daughter to my parents..the one that will always make them proud..
16. i could repay my parents for what they've done to me..since i was in my mom's womb for 9months10days...and now...23years6months17days..and more to come~insyaAllah..i know none that i can do that will ever equivalent to their deeds~but i will try my best~
17. everyday is a happy day~for you and for me~for everyone...haha
18. to organize a reunion for 88element..i've been planning to do it in december~or late november..somewhere out of KL since most of them who are staying outside KL complained that the reunions always took place in KL~am thinking of the venue and the suitable date..but haven't propose to the group yet~
19. i will be a good friend~
20. i wish i could write this list up to 100th but it seems not going to happen as i'm starting to feel tired with myself~hahah..but will write to 23rd..ok..come on!
21. someone will buy me a Nissan Fair Lady Z~hahahahahha..blue one~~~ :D---->totally a wishful thinking~
22. i can be less serious~~am i too serious?
23. i will meet my other half..

-the end-

:D

Graduasi

ok..

this post might has a lil essence of jealousy in it~

haha...

ok..

whenever i opened my facebook, i saw tonnes of pictures of my friends on their graduation days~

a part of me was..YEAY...i'm happy for you..it's your big day...finally..you get your degree/master..

and proudly call yourself graduate of bla bla bla...

a part of me was.. -_-"..lucky you...i'm jealous of you..finally...you can move on to the next level..while i'm stuck in here..

yeah..i know that my time will come sooooooon...but..

i don't know...

and the most jealous part is..

when looking at my friends' pictures who graduated in UOA-University of Auckland

aaaaaa..

how i wish i could be there next year for my graduation...

it's a wishful thinking...

oh Mr Government..how i wish you could sponsor me to have my graduation there~~ *_*

ok..

enough..

time to knock my head and put my feet on the ground back~

my time will come soon..

next year..

so for the mean time, please enjoy your days~

because next year, you won't have free time like you're having now~

ok..tengah dilema~

should i or shouldn't i buy a polaroid?
:D

life as we know it

this post is not related to Josh Duhamel and Katherine Heigl movie~~duhh

life as we know it..

hurm..

what do we actually know about life?

so far i can list 2...

1. mysterious

2. challenging

1.Mysterious...

we'll never know what will happen in our lives..in the future..

only Allah knows everything that lies ahead..

but us?as a human being..none..

everything is a mystery...

unpredictable...

yesterday or yesteryear stories will remain the same..as we can never go back to those non-rewindable moments

today..drawing a fine line between yesterday and tomorrow..the present moment telling "what i have done" and "what will i do"

life=future=mystery

everything happens for reasons

reasons yet to be discovered..

2. Challenging..

you tell me..

every moment in your life is a challenge..

starting from waking up..is a Great Challenge..i would say..

the challenge to open your eyes..to move out of your bed...

even to fall asleep at night is also a challenge...

when your body really needs a rest but your eyes cant keep them shut..

it's a challenge..

no need to talk about other extravagant challenges you faced in your daily lives..

but again..

take this challenges as gifts from Allah..

to keep you strong..

and make you stronger...day by day

hot issue

hell yeah~~~

All Blacks won the RWC '11..

and this is the hottest issue in 2011...

the Kiwis won the championship since 1987..yeah..i wasn't even born at that time..so..after 24 years..they claimed the victory..

watching the game, All Blacks vs. France was a very nerve-wrecking moment for me..

although i was watching the game alone..while my lil bro was sleeping - tired of camping~

i considered myself getting depression stage 3..and it was a neck-to-neck match between NZ and France..

but the All Blacks defended their positions till the end of the game.. 8-7..

if you're All Blacks supporter, and you didn't feel a thing while watching the game..

i guess there's something wrong with you :P

dang i miss the moments watching the games at eden park..

7-Richie McCaw with Webb Ellis cup~ thumbs up for the captain~~~ *woot woot*

they should have let SBW play from the beginning~~~ T_T...

it's ok Sonny~~will always rooting for you :P

so..

apart from the All Blacks winning RWC'11..

there's another hot issue that will never be forgotten~~

guess what? :D
the most epic moment in history where SBW's jersey was ripped off while playing against Tonga

and his ripped shirt got more cheer than a try..

why??haha...i tell you why....

halamak..longan baju den koyak~camno nie?

nak buek camno laie..main yolah..koyak pon koyak la...

dah dipanggil den kono bukak baju pulak..tuka jersey baru~~~

kotat pulak jersey nie..tak ko susah den nak pakai~~nasib baek ado acik nolong den pakai...

ok..den boleh main semulo~~~ :D

you see...

if you were watching it wit astro beyond and you have the PVR..definitely you would like to replay that moment :P

what makes him the hottest player ever??

he's a muslim :D

anyways..

congrats All Blacks!!

p/s: can't imagine if SBW really speak nogori~~~ahhaha

unwell

hurm..

after pangkor trip..

i had cricket training~it was fun..

but again..

i had to stand under the very hot sun...

got burn..again...

and..

the mood swing weathers..

it was hot in the morning right till the afternoon and...

evening until night..it was raining~~~

so...

i guess..

Mr Fever is coming to visit me~~~

starting to get headache...flu...sore throat..cough~~~aaaaaaaaaaa

please pray for me...getting well soon..

luckily got 1 week holiday~

:D

nice song

Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter

from "Closer" movie

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you...
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

nice song

mixed

ok..

my trip to pangkor was excellent~~part of it..hurm...

well..

we (my group, 39 0f us) went there with our juniors..2011 intakes...

so can you imagine the age differences? 17+/18 and 23/24 years old?

hurm..

at Pangkor,

we did water confidence, kayaking, abseiling..and most of the time we spent in the sea water~~~

it's FUN~

but of course..you gain one thing you lose one thing~

i got tanned~euphemism of sun burnt~hoho..

and i became dehydrated since i got back from Pangkor..

hot+lack of water

and we had LDK (latihan dalam kumpulan) where we were divided into 4 groups..

2 juniors groups and 2 seniors groups..

we had several inter-group competitions..

and the seniors' groups kept on winning and exchanging the 1st place and 2nd place..

so i could see the changes in the juniors' reactions whenever the lecturer kept on complementing us, the seniors, and condemning them...

i knew exactly the feeling when people kept on saying how good the others were..

and i knew exactly the feeling when people kept on comparing you with others...

been there~

but..sometimes..

we didn't realize the reason why people did so...

because they wanted us to improve~to change~to become better...

moreover, 5 years different tells everything..

the maturity..

we've grown so many ways especially the way we think..

the way we view things

the way we do things...

these kids they are fresh from ovens..they're young..they're still new..

so they perhaps couldn't see the stuff that we saw...

while they kept on competing with the other group,

we kept on supporting other group...

we support each other..we back up each other..

well..

again..we used to be like them..

hopefully, soon they will learn and change~ :D

ok..so that's mind talking~

the rational me~

so...

should i let the heart talks too???

the half part of Pangkor experience...the not-so-excellent-part..

was when the past was hunting me~

hate that!

why?????

urghhhh...

unsettled

unresolved

confusing

mixed feelings

one time it felt like walking on the cloud nine..seven heaven

one time it felt like sh*t...

misery

%$^(&^&#!#!@#$%^&*%$^%#&#?!~

3days

ok..so tomorrow~i mean today...it's already 1.21 am now.. i'll be off to PANGKOR~~

woha!

so...i'm going to be away for 3 days~and might switch off my data services since i have to save the batt~~chances of not having power supply to charge my phone~~~ -_-"

so..i've packed everything and hopefully nothing will be left behind~~the last time i went for a trip was last year~~~winter trip...hurm...

so...*ok i'm excessively using SO now...hopefully everything will be fine~~~insyaAllah...

crap crap crap

i know i should have done other things right now instead of blogging,

but somehow, i just want to procrastinate~

procrastinating is the best policy when you're lazy like crazy~~woha!

well, today i feel a bit relieve..

i've submitted my practicum portfolio and buku record to 'The Supervisor'

i thought i won't see him anymore after my practicum..

i guess i was wrong..and when i met him...

the words came from him were

"ha...the long overdue" - referring to me and robot for late submitting the portfolios and books..

well..he didn't call us...telling us when and where to meet...

soooo typical of him...haiye...

but...

who cares?

just put on your poker face, smile and wave...

the moment i handed my stuffs..i felt like half of the burden went away...

so now...i have to think of my other assignment..the reflective task....

and the due is on Monday..soo..today is Friday...

chillax~i already have some ideas on my mind right now..

it is just that i need some time to translate my ideas into words...which is one of my biggest problem..

but...for now...lets not think about it...yet...haha :D

owh..i'm looking forward for next week's Pangkor trip..

i know i'm going to get a free tanning there...but...there's nothing can compare to the experience and the time i have with my besties (although not all 10 of us will be there.. :'( ...only 4 of us)
haiye...

speaking of which..i've never been there~pulau2 ni..langkawi je yang pernah sampai...

itu pon not when i was still in Kedah...

nobody believed me when i said i never been to langkawi before although i lived in Kedah for 7 years~

hurmm...

actually..

i've been meaning to write other things but ended up..

i'm crapping about these stuffs above this...

owh...

last sem..it was the wedding season..

where my friends were talking about wedding, the gowns, the hantarans, the marriage etc...

where the wedding magazines became the bible instead of our coursebook and assignments~

and now...after the practicum..it is the NEWBORN season..

and the topic will be all about babies..babies' names...who's going to give birth..their nieces~

owh yeah...this year is the year of baby girl..where those people that gave birth this year, those who we know had gave birth to cute baby girl...

my cousin - baby girl, last april i guess..arissa

kamm's angah - baby girl, last august kot...hana effah (kam betol kan ejaan ni? :D)

kamm's along - baby girl, last week...rubyna

chuna's kak in - baby girl..yesterday~..alisya~~

see..

told you..

ok..i'm drifting away from the previous topic~

*malas dah nak baca balik*

ok..short notes about things happened this week:

1. went to school to pick up some forms from Mdm R and Mdm Z... i was soo happy to see my kids~although i might not show them how excited i was to see all of them..i feel bad knowing the fact that they have to split for english class since there's not enough teachers to teach them...
2. Wednesday night - TESL night by the juniors...i was soo surprised seeing them more "overseas" than us who actually went to overseas..more Hollywood than Hollywood.. well you see....the lecturers here were worried about us coming back with those western influences..culture shock..like our seniors in previous cohorts..but alhamdulillah, we still know where we come from..we never forget our roots~ and last 2 nights, i was shocked with the juniors...wearing skirts and dresses above knee lengths, some wearing tights or pantyhose and some didn't..it's not only the nons..but also the muslims...what you want to wear outside the college is up to you..i respect your right and hope that one day you'll change but to dress improperly for college event i guess it's not professional..and bare in mind...you're going to be a teacher..so dress yourself like one..seeing the college culture now make me feel like i'm in overseas again..you know what i mean~ young blood~
3. today i met my bestie..with her mom~haha..although it was very short..but at least we could see each other..since now she started working in terengganu..so it's going to be more difficult for us to see each other..

so...next week i'm going to Pangkor...

then on saturday i have handball match~haha..

sunday..umair's wedding~my schoolmate...need to look for a driver~hahah...siapa yang kena?

so..am not going back home this weekend an next weekend~ :(

but..hoping that maklong would be around at her home..so that i could pay her a visit..

and to see my beloved naughty nephews and lovely niece~

kiddos...wait for your auntie aina~ :D

busy~

why do i feel that time past slower today than when i was in school during my pract????

my housemate said it's because i don't have to think about lesson plans,

what to teach the students...what to tell etc..

but in ipba..

what i did today was..

"listening" to the lecture~~~aaaahhh..

totally made me wanna go back to school and teach..

one of the reasons why i don't want to take masters..cukup2 la with degrees~~

haiye...

i guess...

i need to get a grip of myself before i start to lose it~

and..

i guess..

i'm going to blog more frequent than before..

pics of gifts from my students and from Mdm R and english panel~

told you it's like a wedding gift~hahaha... :D

i didn't realize there were stars in it..and my lil sis who found out about it~

so these are all "hasil tangkapan" of the day~~

thanks peeps~

here some shots taken on my last week in SMAPK~

from the back:

arman,faathir,farith,hashymi,iqbal,muaz,muhaimin,hazim,amir,hadif,hafiz,adam,munir,syafiq

at the front:

anas,farhana,emy,aimi,fatin,deanna,saidatul,aishah and jannah

my form 2 kids~

i know we didn't end our class with a nice memory..

but i hope that night somehow did make up for the rough day we had...

will never forget when the boys singing "maafkan kami" and the specifically unrequested "cinta muka buku" hahah

you guys are awesome kids~

back row: akma,sarah,izzah,alfizah,syakirah,faizah,afiqah

front row: fatin,malihah,adila,amirah,iman

my form4 girls..

who enjoyed seeing their "naive" teacher getting prank by them..hahah...

these beautiful kids~haiye...

owh...fatihah was not in the picture~

fatihah please get well soon~~~

back row: fauzan,hisyam,syazwan,nasri,ihsan,fahim,hafiz,arif,amier,mubarak

front row: shahrul,naufal,faiz,asyraf,muhammad,naqiuddin,syafiq

my form4 boys...

i wonder what happened at that time

but it's good that you guys looked so happy~

poor syafiq because he's barely there in the pic..arif pulak been blocked by muhammad

kids...

i will never forget

when muhammad fainted but no one seemed to care...haha..

instead you guys fell into my baits: coke and 100plus...hahah :D

poor muhammad~

i appreciate the fact that you kids tried to surprise me...

i enjoyed that moment very much..

till i had crammed eyebrows...hahah...

dang...

why la your teacher is sooo sweet...

blogging about you kids...

bukan nye korang ingat teacher pon kan~~ sobs~~~

get back to reality

wow..

3 months...

seemed too short...

but now i have to face the reality

that my practicum time is over..

no more writing lesson plans..

no more rushing to the class...

no more waiting for the students to submit their works..

if only i could tell my kids how much i miss them...

kids...

i hope you are doing great..

even without me...torturing you~

even without me...pushing you~

don't look for me tomorrow..

as i'm not going to be there at school..

but

i will always be here for you...

praying for your success

especially for you upcoming exams..

please make me proud.. :D

A and A+ ok!

A+ english call teacher and i'll treat you :D

by the way..

thanks for the presents~

very sweet of you kids..

although somehow i kinda feel like i got wedding gifts

*jug kettle and tea set*

shawls from the kids as well as from mdm R and english panel,

cards...

book..

etc..

i do appreciate all of them...

funny thing was..

last night..

i dreamed that i entered my 4Marikh class...*science class*

but i had to teach them accounting..how funny was that???
i never learn accounting before and it was a SCIENCE class!!!

hurm..

i guess i've been thinking about my kids all day long and got carried away..

i hope you'll never forget me kids!

as i will try my best not to forget you lot! :D

well now i guess..

my biological clock is going back to normal..

i mean..

not as normal as normal people have..

either i will go through insomnia again or excessive sleepiness disorder again..

i realized that only during practical time i had a NORMAL sleeping time... T_T

ok..

need to push my self to sleep..

it's midnight already..

i don't have the heart to go to the DKA tomorrow~simply MALAS!!!

just like anaqi said..

"baik fail kan practicum and pergi balik sekolah mengajar"

but..

of course i don't want to flunk my practicum

kids..

jangan tidur during english class tomorrow! :D