mixed

ok..

my trip to pangkor was excellent~~part of it..hurm...

well..

we (my group, 39 0f us) went there with our juniors..2011 intakes...

so can you imagine the age differences? 17+/18 and 23/24 years old?

hurm..

at Pangkor,

we did water confidence, kayaking, abseiling..and most of the time we spent in the sea water~~~

it's FUN~

but of course..you gain one thing you lose one thing~

i got tanned~euphemism of sun burnt~hoho..

and i became dehydrated since i got back from Pangkor..

hot+lack of water

and we had LDK (latihan dalam kumpulan) where we were divided into 4 groups..

2 juniors groups and 2 seniors groups..

we had several inter-group competitions..

and the seniors' groups kept on winning and exchanging the 1st place and 2nd place..

so i could see the changes in the juniors' reactions whenever the lecturer kept on complementing us, the seniors, and condemning them...

i knew exactly the feeling when people kept on saying how good the others were..

and i knew exactly the feeling when people kept on comparing you with others...

been there~

but..sometimes..

we didn't realize the reason why people did so...

because they wanted us to improve~to change~to become better...

moreover, 5 years different tells everything..

the maturity..

we've grown so many ways especially the way we think..

the way we view things

the way we do things...

these kids they are fresh from ovens..they're young..they're still new..

so they perhaps couldn't see the stuff that we saw...

while they kept on competing with the other group,

we kept on supporting other group...

we support each other..we back up each other..

well..

again..we used to be like them..

hopefully, soon they will learn and change~ :D

ok..so that's mind talking~

the rational me~

so...

should i let the heart talks too???

the half part of Pangkor experience...the not-so-excellent-part..

was when the past was hunting me~

hate that!

why?????

urghhhh...

unsettled

unresolved

confusing

mixed feelings

one time it felt like walking on the cloud nine..seven heaven

one time it felt like sh*t...

misery

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