~xtau la saye~

huish...

pengakheran july nie amat stress~~~~

xtau nape emo sndrian lately.....
*bengang dlm dri je...xg bengang xmem*swine* bute kt owg laen*

haish...

pengakheran july nie...
byk dugaan sbnanye~~~~

dugaan

cobaan....


ble kte bengang pe ptot kte wt kwn???
sembyg sunat byk2...
bwk betenang..mengucap...

insyaallah tenang sket ati tue...



p/s: sifu cari milah!!! an! an! an!
p/p/s: minggu nie start sbe~~~patot ke pki baju kurung tym angen kuat2 nie??hahha

emo-ticon

aiyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~
saket2 nie kn...dunnoe r..
cm kinda sensitive sket..
hurm..
small2 things pon bley wt ak jd saket o kck ati..
kdg2 kn..ble pk blk...xpatot pon nk mrh o bengang psl dat siyesly small matter..
hurmph.....nose blocked = mental blocked...aiyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

~aaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhhh~

aiseyh...
i hate it when i gt flu~~~
i hate it when i hv runny nose~~~
aishhhhh.....
according to pkr homeopathy...when we r tension we r easily 2 gt flu..
huhuhu..
according to my body system...when i gt flu...ak jd tensi..
aishhhhh.....
but thx for my frens yg concern bout my condition...
insyaallah..it juz a normal flu only...
not swine..*dikale nz sdg kecoh psl swine nie*
it juz d normal one..headache, flu *runny n block nose*, sore throat, cough at times
yela..bcoz now da start sejok....
nak2 plak mlm2 jln kt lua...
last week g rec centre maen mix netball *dt tym i told shane dat diz week im going 2 b sick..so xbley maen--tgk2 mmg btol pon ak xsehat*
weekend nye plak g umah jennie n david..jln kaki kol6 yg mmg gle sejuk ari tue..8degrees tue..*seb baek balik david anta kn*
n rabu ritu g rec centre lg..maen mix indoor hockey plaks *game sume mlm ye..so sggh sejoooo..mmg gigi da terketap2 mcm kancing gigi la n maen dlm keaadaan idong ku yg sggh xselese n tym game dibuli oleh bdk2 grafton--1boy yg sggh besar langgar n bergolek ats ak!mmg no mercy la diowg maen*
n my insomnia dtg kembali..bgaikn tora dtg lagi...
so kurang tdo n rest make my condition even worse...huuuuuuuuu~
n tgh serabut2 wif idong...esaimen plaks berlunggok2 xseap lg...
aishhhhh......
huuuuu~.....
dugaan...
*sape soh procrastinate wat esaimen?!*

home

i'v been listening to home.. blake shelton' version..suddenly..i felt so sad..s much s people asked me..how's life..was it fun..whether i'm fine ere o not...its true dat i have so much fun ere..coz its a new experience for me..but..s much s i'm enjoying my life ere..i really really miss my home...i wanna go home..i mish my family..i miss all of dem..

aku...

aku rase....

#1 kompius
-kompius dgn idop
-kompius ngan perasaan
-kompius ngan sesetengah orang kt atas muke bumi nie

#2 jeles
-tgk kengkawan gembire
-tgk menatang pon happy je
-tgk owg laen bley tdo dgn nyenyak nye

#3 rimas
-ble dlm keadaan sesak ngan org rmi dlm keadaan yg sesak dn sempit
-ble ad byk nyamuk kt sekeliling n asek menghirup drh ak
-ble xde karan huhuhu

#4 happy
-tgk owg yg ak syg happy2 belake
-tgk sume owg cerie
-tgk result exm yg membangge kn (sape yg xhappy)

#5 bersyukur
-masih hidup smpi skang
-masih ad kwn2 yg syg ak n ak syg diowg
-masih boley tros kn idop untk capai matlamt ak

...

ap yg ak rse sekarang is...sukar untuk diungkapkan...............
susah untuk ditafsirkan...
apatah lagi untuk diluahkan dalam kata-kata.....



P/s: senang cakp...i'm emotionally unstable..ahahhah

now empty

now
its empty
no more laugh, no more tears
now
its empty
everyone has leave, everyone has gone
its EMPTY
so long my dear friends
think i'm gonna miss you, damn much
though its empty
i will full this emptiness
with our memories
and pour lots of love
so our friendship
will last forever

ku memblog lagi buat kali kedua nya untuk harini..bapa ku belum tiba lagi..lalu ku tenung kertas2 nota kamilah yang ditinggalkan di atas meja. lalu ku mengambil sebatang pena bersama komik dik cerdas..ku fikir ku ingin membaca komik itu..namun hati tidak berkeinginan..lalu ku coret kan segala isi hati yang terbungkam didada ku yang mula menjadi semakin sebak, sayu dan pilu. oh mengapa??

dunnoe y i'm being so emotional today..i've been crying alone all by myself..as suddenly i thought bout my frens..being unable to control myself..tears started running down my cheeks. n i still waiting for my dad..i'm sitting on cikin's bed, where i used to stay here watching WGM (we gt so crazy with WGM) with her..just now i went to 505be, where i used to hang out there, trying to find a room for me to sleep when i started being insomniac..chit chatting with da 505bians and where most of our conversation took place..unable to go inside my room..2 pay d last visit to my beloved 505d..coz d makciks yg dtg for kursus during hols were staying there..so couldnt say goodbye to her (my room) i sat on a chair at the hall..looking around..watching da ceiling, da dirty fan (i bet its been a long long time not cleaning it..n i cant rememba if by any chance we cleaned it or not).. we used to study 2getha there esp during xm..group discussion..spend lots of majong papers and put on the wall where evrybody came 2 our house 2 read wut we'v discussed..but most of the time the hall was the place for us to exhibit our madness n crazyness rather than studying or reading santrock or ormrod or woolfolk..gosh..am gonna miss all of these...

the notes dt i'v been writing



well..gtg..hv 2 seap now coz in any minute my dad will arrive...

~~LEavINg~~

all my bags are packed i'm ready to go
i'm standing here in cikin's room
i hate 2 wake cikin up 2 say gud bye (though myb die yg akn blk dlu...mard da blk daa..n cikin btol2 tgh tdo tyme nie)
but da down is breaking its early morn (da afternoon daa)
i'm waiting for my dad 2 blow the horn
already i'm so lonesome i could die
there's so many times i'v let u guys down
so many times i'v played around
but darlings now they dont mean a thing
every place i go i think of u guys
every song i sing i sing for u guys
when i come back i hope we still b frens!!!
so kiss me n smile 4 me
tell me dt u guys will wait 4 me
hold me like u guys never let me go
coz i'm leaving on a jet plane(next year)
next 2years i will be back again
owh babes i hate 2 go (though i'm so excited 2 go there)..

seriously guys...i'm gonna mish u guys damn much..esp those dt am not gonna see nxt yea (dun worry i'll find u in aussie o welli) huhuhu..so sad when evryone started to leave dis ouse (505B)..so many memories dt we'v created here..d bond between us..so many things happened dis year..we laughed..we fought..we cried(capa jgn wat2 lpe plak ko nangeh tym ko dpt marjon..hahah)..we enjoyed our life..mkn meggie telo rmi2..outing 2getha..gurls-day-outs.. watching muvies tym mkn afta blk from pasr mlm..duhh..gonna miah psr mlm kerinchi too.. we studied 2getha n passed d exm 2getha...but nxt yea..we r going 2 live separately..live diff kind of live..having our own journey though some are goin 2 da same place..but we'll never noe wut will happen in da future dt waiting for us 2 explore n discover on our own..pape pon..all da best 2 u guys..have fun there..n 4gt me not..things could change n might not be da same again..world can change as it keeps moving n it might not b da same again..people might change for good or for bad..but 1 thing dt i dun wanna change n i wish will never change..our frenship..d bond between us..will never change..but will become stronger than eva..luve u guys....

505Beda.....
proves of our hard works..hahha

kitchen...kenangan msk 2getha
pangkin yg da repoot d mkn dek pns ujan..

~lots of love from me xoxo~