kiddos~

it has been a long time since my last post..

pheww..

well..what else would i talk about if not about my dearest students..

how they made me proud and how they disappointed me..or maybe how i have disappointed them..

this morning...my cooperating teacher observed my form2 class...and i was very nervous this morning..i went to the loo for 3 times..rasa semacam je..as if i get the feeling that i'm going to screw up my lesson...

so i went to my class early..to set up everything and to make sure that my students were ready for the lesson..

entahla..maybe because i'm too nervous, i talked faster than usual..and my lesson finished 20minutes early...after that..blank..i didn't know what to do..calling for desperate need..i told my cooperating teacher and asked her what i should do next...

after that i felt so frustrated...not because of the feedback given by my cooperating teacher..

indeed i admit what my cooperating teacher said were true..and i accepted it as i'm still learning..

nama pon student teacher kan..but...i felt frustrated looking at my students' reactions and responds to my lesson..

before this...tak pernah la nak menguap..or terlelap ke...but today they did...it's always during my observation with my cooperating teacher..supposedly they would behave themselves as my cooperating teacher is actually their own English teacher...but..they seemed not bother at all...

hari ni lah nak buat perangai...why????

after that..rasa macam tak mampu dah nak harungi hidup ni...

even other teacher also asked me why i looked so tired..

then...something happened..ceh..

just now i had extra class with my form4 students...rajin kan?

basically i was discussing the answers for their July test...so almost half of the class la yang datang..i didn't force them to come...i gave them freedom..haha..*from now on..whenever i said freedom i'm going to remember one of my students :D* ok..freedom to choose...whether they want to come or not..so seeing the responds..ok..i realised that when we learn to let go instead of holding on..they will come back to us...haha..macam what sheryll did to us last time la..conflict2..because she insisted on wanting us to behave, read the articles beforehand, turn up in tutorials.blablabla..sampai lah one day she walked out from the class..saying that she won't care anymore...and she never force us after that...everyone pon happy je..datang je..and dia pon tak ada dah nak pengsan2 sampai masuk hospital dah...

so ok la...bila lebih dari 10 orang yang datang kan...

so we discussed all the answers...bila dah habis...i asked them whether they have any questions..

and then all of them asking me to tell stories...hahah...so we talked...and talked.. and i told them how proud i am seeing their poster hanging outside of their classroom...i seriously thought that they were going to paste it inside their classroom...and so far..they have never let me down...haha..tu pon sebab i never gave them homework dah..susah sangat nak buat homework..

haha...they asked me about my blog..na'a...i won't tell you..hahaha.. :D