~~~difficulty~~~~

dulu2..mase kte bru lahir..bru nk celik..bru nk nmpk dunia nie..mak bapak yg slalu wat decision utk kte..nk bg mkn ap...nk pki bju ap...nk anta sek kt mne n skola mne yg terbaek utk kte...ble kte da start becakap..mule blajar bertatih...tyme tue..sdr x sdr..kte da mule blaar utk wt pilihan sndrik..mne arh kte nk jln..antre mak ngan pakcik yang ske skt kte..kte rather plh mak kte..ble kte mule msk skola...byk pilihn yg kte kne tentukn sndrik..nk pilih kawaan..pilih subjek yg besh yg kte mint..pilih cekgu mne yg besh n mne yg ske menyakitkn ati etc..smpi la kte da besar pnjg cmnie..n da msok 20 da pon..cme nye..pnah x kte terpk..sme ad..pilihn yg kte wt tue..btol atau salah..baik atau tidak..bijak kah kte dlm mempertimbangkn sesuatu perkara??betol kah keputusan yg kita buat??adkh ap yg kta pilih tue adlh yg terbaik utk kita n utk semue??pnh x kte menyesal ngan keputusan kte???n kdg2..pnah x kte terpk yg klo bley kte nk ulang blk mse n xnk wt kesalhn yg sme spye kte dpt wt keputusn yg tepat???...

rse nye..manusia yg bnr2 manusia..sume akn menghadapi mslh yg sme...
manusia itu tidak sempurna namun sentiasa mencari kesempurnaan...
sampai kdg2..kite xnmpk..dlm kesempurnaan tu ad kecacatan..
dan dalam kecacatan tue ad kesempurnaan..

di jadikn hawa dr rusuk kiri adam yang bengkok..bukti manusia itu tidak sempurna
agar adam dapat melindungi dan menjage serta membimbing ke arah jln yg lurus..

kewarasan akal kadang kala tidak dapat membendung kebuntuan hati...
satu masalah yang sering dihadapi oleh manusia selagi mana ia bernama anak cucu adam..

yang dinamakan itu manusia adalah hamba tuhan yang maha esa yang maha mengetahui segala kejadian..
semua ini adalh suatu ketetapan oleh Illahi..
sebagai manusia..siapalah kita yang untuk menetukan..yang cuba menilik masa hadapan..
perkara yang bakal terjadi..
semua nya berbalik kepada fitrah kehidupan manusia yang tidak lari dari kesilapan..
kadangkala kita sangka kn yang kita telah membuat satu keputusan yang bijak dan betul..
namun..apabila suatu bencana menimpa..tanpa kita duga..
baru kita sedar..bahawa selama ini kita sudah tersalah pilih jalan...


kata orang..sesal dahulu pendapatan sesal kemudian tidak berguna..
namun..manusia sering lupa..
sudah terhantuk baru tergadah..
jangan kerana tersalah buat pilihan..
kita menyesal..dan cuba untuk kembali mencipta satu cerita yang kesudahannya mustahil untuk dicapai...

sebagai manusia..
yang mampu kita lakukan..hanyalah
kembali ke pangkal jalan..mulakan hidup baru..yang lepas biarlah lepas..
belajar untuk hidup bertauladankan kesalahan yang pernah dilakukan..
supaya pisang tidak berbuah dua kali...

~al-fatihah~

tanggal 21 November 2008, jam 11.40 pg...
satu detik menyayat hati telah melanda kehidupan ku...
satu tragedi yang meninggalkan kesan luka yang mendalam hingga ke hari ini..
ak telah kehilangan..insan yang paling berarti dalam hidup ku..
yang meneamani tidur malam ku
yang menyinari siang hidup ku..
penghibur duka dan lara di kala sepi menghantui ku..
peneman dikala suka berbicara...
oleh itu..
marilah kita sama-sama mennyedekahkan al-fatihah kepada
GIGI ku....
hooooooooooooooooooooohh...

smlm ak g klinik gigi..
n ak still dok berkira2 lg smpi la msk dlm bilik doc tue (ak asek tersasul pggl die uncle je)
hohoho..
skali die tnye mau cabut atau au kasi tampal..
ak ckp la
ak: uncle u tgk la dlu, bley tampal ka kna cabut
uncle @ doc gigi: u ada sakit ka??
ak: dlm minggu ni dia asek saket2 ja uncle
uncle: klo itu mcm kna kasi cabot la
ak:(termanggu keseoragn..huuu..kna cabut jgk)
uncle: kna thn sikit r..dia ad skt sikit sja (sambil membius ak..2 tmpt)
ak:(uiks..kebas..ak da xrsa ak nye lidah pon..n uncle tue da bia kn ku keseorgn)
uncle:(die dtg blk slps bbrpa min) thn ha..sikit sja sakit (smbil membius ku sbyk 3kli..)
ak: aah..aah..(sakit dowh..sumpah xtpu)
uncle: thn..u jgn wat keras nnt dia lagi sakit (smbil memegang sejenis alat yg kelihatan spt playar)
ak: aah...aaah..(hampir menitis kn air mata..tp cube mengawal..malu weyh)
uncle: kjp ah (die meronggah gigi ku seakan2 meronggah paip menngunakan perengkuh paip)
ak:(uiks..da cabut ke belum ni)
uncle: u mau tgk x gigi u???(smbil meenunjukkn gigi ku)


waah~gigi ku sgh pnjg ke dlm rupanya...dn meninggalkn kesan lobang yg besar dlm mulut ku aka gusi ku..smpi mkn pon mknn asek msk dlm lubang tue..tp ofkos r..kne kumur..

pengajaran: hargai lah insan yg tersayang...klo xmo jd mcm ak..
sobsob

now empty

now
its empty
no more laugh, no more tears
now
its empty
everyone has leave, everyone has gone
its EMPTY
so long my dear friends
think i'm gonna miss you, damn much
though its empty
i will full this emptiness
with our memories
and pour lots of love
so our friendship
will last forever

ku memblog lagi buat kali kedua nya untuk harini..bapa ku belum tiba lagi..lalu ku tenung kertas2 nota kamilah yang ditinggalkan di atas meja. lalu ku mengambil sebatang pena bersama komik dik cerdas..ku fikir ku ingin membaca komik itu..namun hati tidak berkeinginan..lalu ku coret kan segala isi hati yang terbungkam didada ku yang mula menjadi semakin sebak, sayu dan pilu. oh mengapa??

dunnoe y i'm being so emotional today..i've been crying alone all by myself..as suddenly i thought bout my frens..being unable to control myself..tears started running down my cheeks. n i still waiting for my dad..i'm sitting on cikin's bed, where i used to stay here watching WGM (we gt so crazy with WGM) with her..just now i went to 505be, where i used to hang out there, trying to find a room for me to sleep when i started being insomniac..chit chatting with da 505bians and where most of our conversation took place..unable to go inside my room..2 pay d last visit to my beloved 505d..coz d makciks yg dtg for kursus during hols were staying there..so couldnt say goodbye to her (my room) i sat on a chair at the hall..looking around..watching da ceiling, da dirty fan (i bet its been a long long time not cleaning it..n i cant rememba if by any chance we cleaned it or not).. we used to study 2getha there esp during xm..group discussion..spend lots of majong papers and put on the wall where evrybody came 2 our house 2 read wut we'v discussed..but most of the time the hall was the place for us to exhibit our madness n crazyness rather than studying or reading santrock or ormrod or woolfolk..gosh..am gonna miss all of these...

the notes dt i'v been writing



well..gtg..hv 2 seap now coz in any minute my dad will arrive...

~~LEavINg~~

all my bags are packed i'm ready to go
i'm standing here in cikin's room
i hate 2 wake cikin up 2 say gud bye (though myb die yg akn blk dlu...mard da blk daa..n cikin btol2 tgh tdo tyme nie)
but da down is breaking its early morn (da afternoon daa)
i'm waiting for my dad 2 blow the horn
already i'm so lonesome i could die
there's so many times i'v let u guys down
so many times i'v played around
but darlings now they dont mean a thing
every place i go i think of u guys
every song i sing i sing for u guys
when i come back i hope we still b frens!!!
so kiss me n smile 4 me
tell me dt u guys will wait 4 me
hold me like u guys never let me go
coz i'm leaving on a jet plane(next year)
next 2years i will be back again
owh babes i hate 2 go (though i'm so excited 2 go there)..

seriously guys...i'm gonna mish u guys damn much..esp those dt am not gonna see nxt yea (dun worry i'll find u in aussie o welli) huhuhu..so sad when evryone started to leave dis ouse (505B)..so many memories dt we'v created here..d bond between us..so many things happened dis year..we laughed..we fought..we cried(capa jgn wat2 lpe plak ko nangeh tym ko dpt marjon..hahah)..we enjoyed our life..mkn meggie telo rmi2..outing 2getha..gurls-day-outs.. watching muvies tym mkn afta blk from pasr mlm..duhh..gonna miah psr mlm kerinchi too.. we studied 2getha n passed d exm 2getha...but nxt yea..we r going 2 live separately..live diff kind of live..having our own journey though some are goin 2 da same place..but we'll never noe wut will happen in da future dt waiting for us 2 explore n discover on our own..pape pon..all da best 2 u guys..have fun there..n 4gt me not..things could change n might not be da same again..world can change as it keeps moving n it might not b da same again..people might change for good or for bad..but 1 thing dt i dun wanna change n i wish will never change..our frenship..d bond between us..will never change..but will become stronger than eva..luve u guys....

505Beda.....
proves of our hard works..hahha

kitchen...kenangan msk 2getha
pangkin yg da repoot d mkn dek pns ujan..

~lots of love from me xoxo~

~Sunway Attack~

yosh...
err..last thursday aka 14 nov..me..cikin..mard n aliaa went to sunway lagoon..hahha...da lme ngidam nk g ctu..n finally..hahha......aigoo...pening pale..nnt r smbg tls blk..


hohooh..sudah ok..hheheh....well2..b4 tue..sesmpi nye ktowg kt dpn entrance sunway..peroot memsg da ~kriok~ so kami pon mmbhgi tugas...mard n cikin g bli tiket 1st while me n aliaa went 2 gloria jeans..jejln kt gloria jeans...i met azizah mahza..hahah..spe2 yg tgk drama tv3 aka SPA-Q knal r kot..hoho..msk dlm gloria jeans...ktowg nmpk..huuuuuuu...fazreen n norish karman outside da window..hohoho..ad shooting 4 SPA-Q 2....huhuhu..so dunnoe r whether me n aliaa msk ke x dlm shoot tue..haahhah...k..den ktowg g dpt kn ktowg nye tag n g j.co (huhuhu..loving it)...mkn kt situ...pai peyot kembong ~ngeee...hahhahah...

well...sesmpi sne..ujan..huhu..tp xlbt sgt./..so ...basically d weather was good..xde r pns terik yg akn menyebbkkn kulit ktowg ibrt bru kua dri oven...hhohoh..abes pamphlet sunway tue ktowg jd kn payong..hhoho..1st ride yg ktowg naek was cawan yg putar2..tue..yosh sye putar halim...at 1st..me naek wif aliaa n mard ngan cikin..hahha...punye r sakan diowg pusing smpi laju gle..m n aliaa cm pelik y dieowg pnye lg lju dr ours..hhoho..so ktowg naek lg d 2nd time..xpuas ati..hahah..n still diowg lg lju..knape ye???hohoh..so d 3rd time naek skali ngan mard n cikin..owh rahsie nye..diowg start pusing dr awl lg..hahhamard tue da tau pening lagi nk pusing laju2..hahhah..last2 die yg pening..n muntah2..hahhahah...ktowg naek vultures (supposed 2 b ride 4 kids..hahahha..ala burung yg bley naek trn naek trn tue)..but....huhu..unfortunately cikin's xnaek2..hahah..die punye r excited nk naek..but last2 mine yg naek ats n xtrn2..hahaha...3x ktowg naek vultures...afta dt naek butch(kasut koboi yg berputar dgn ligt nye) utk 3x..coz abg2 kt c2 xnk bg ktowg trn..hhoh.....

well..kt sunway..i'v managed 2 overcome my fears n phobias..hoho..i oweys said dt i'm claustrophobic, acrophobia, hydrophobic..gosh..so much phobia 4 me..hahahha..but..hehhe..i did it..i managed 2 ride pirate revenge for 2times(1st time ttp bkk mte..but 2nd time wit eyes opened..hehe cz we made an expressionless bet)..tomahawk 2times oso wit eyes opened...roller coaster wit eyes opened oso..hahahhaha..i felt so incredible..haha..at 1st i tot xmo naek r sume tue..tp..ble lg nk try kn n wut r d purpose of going there n not trying evrythings there..hohoho..n ktowg berjye naek bridge yg sgt pnjg (even abg yg keje kt sunway tue pon xtau bape pjng bridge tue)..hohoh...n a tragedy happened where cikin's hp (Sony Ericsson) jth from level4..n d other one (Nokia) almost jth jge but berjye d slmtkn by me..hahahha...and amazingly..dt hp still can b used up until now..hoh hebat!!!....hahahhahaahah...ktowg memanfaat kn sepenoh2nye mse kt sunway and abes kn sume (wlopon xsume) rides tpt pd pkl 6.00..hohoohoh...







pirates revenge (expressionless bet)













tomahawk (mard menggelongsor di dlm nye)

my lenovo cd/dvd player's broken sobsob

wuarghh..tensen..
last n8 i was using my lappy 2 burn dvds 4 my fren...iskisk...n evrythg's stiil or8...
den..dz morning..err..not morning bt aftrnoon act..suddenly it's not working..n gv a weird sound..
i tried 2 play a dvd...bt d lappy couldnt detect d dvd..n....d dvd.............rosak..wuarghhhhhh..
luckily it's still under warranty...bt i 4gt where i put d receipts..hoh...so hv 2 go back 1st n find d purchase receipt..huhu..den my dad n h 2 go 2 lowyatt r..nk repair..aiigoooo.....tensen..double tensen..though i think dts it's nothing..bt still..i noe..it's smthg..indescribable..so..i spent d whole evening..sleeping..huhu..jz dun wanna think bout it...

long vacation 911-1011

~ our LONG VACATION ~
..............................................

date : 9 November - 10 November 2008
venue : palace of golden horses, palace spa & beach resort, the mines shopping fair, serdang KTM, midvalley


huuu....
tanggal 9 november aka 911..ktowg ad grand dinner...so..the nine of us..o shud i call as 505bedau (me, kamm, dayane, syafa, mard, mimie, illie, ckin n cuna) decided to book a room for us on dt day/night..hoho...amat lah meleceyhkn jike ktowg g naek bas..da r sowg2 seap bkn maen lame..hoohooh...
so...
ktowg berpecah..haha..g naek 2 kete..
1. with ckin's kazen - ckin, dayane, syafa n cuna..
diowg bertolak kol 12.45..n end up berlegar2 di
sekitar mines tue n singgah mcd 4 lunch

2. with mard's bro - mard, ak mimie, kamm n illi..whahaha..even abg mard pon cm caye x caye je bley nk muat 5 owg dlm kete tue..hohoh


phewww......
skali ktowg yg smpi dlu daa...hohoh..so ktowg lepak kt lobby dlu at d 1st place..mimie da Zzzzz.. so smentare nk tggu apih confirm kn ngan akk yg incharge ngan blk, mard illi n i went for a sight seeing..ahaha...kunun2 nk tgk tmpt dinner ktowg...so..we took d chance to take our pics..heheh







pemandangan yg lawa + org yg lawa = gmba yg lawa ;p
that's all i can say right now..hehhehhe...seb bek my hp was working at dt tym..myb coz proper lighting..cuace yg cerah......b4 hujan at d evening...huhu

so..sepetang dlm blk 5116..ad yg tdo...(mimie r juare)..iron bju..mndi..tgk tv..membuffer kuku n berebot2 lwn spe plg kilat n tnjuk bwh table lamp...hohoho...woow/\..toilet nye amat r besa..ak n illi da bjt dok dlm bath tub tu r..as if we'r kyle XY..ngehehe..pengaroh tv...tp..bley msk sowg je..hehheh,..so had 2 take turn r nk mndi ke nk ap skali pon..

da nk dkt kol 6 tue..sume da start seap..make up r pe lg...ad yg da pnoh cermin..xckp kt sink..cermin kt bath tub pon ktowg sapu..ngeheheh...




n..sempat lg r nk amek pic b4 kua dr blk..
n nie r resul nye!!!;p
p/s:spot plg fav amek pic--->cermin coz bely amek pic sume owg tnpe melupekan encik kamera..hehehhe











sbena nye..byk je pics yg ktowg amek..n byk mnde yg brlaku tym dinner
1. ak kne bg vase kt mdm satinah!!
2. ak kne bg belon plk kt mdm satinah n bwk die naek ats stage!!!
3. kmi mencilok mknn...n table ktowg G r yg plg pnohh ngan mknn!!!!;p
4. bergamba skn..n thanx 2 mr photogrpher xberbyr:aiman kne amek 40 shots (xgrte)
5. mlg xbersiren=hp mimie ilang n wt spotcheck kt mmt bangla..tp xjmp...sian mimie

.....................................................................
pape pon..mlm itu sungguh penat...huhu

p/s: xpuas ati coz cover buku dinner tue diowg ltk primary pic kt fs..which is not my face!!!!

syafa memule tue bajet suweet n romantik abes r...tdo + gayyot dlm locker..hahhaha...tp last2 tdo ats ktl gk..dayane r insan plg awl tersungkur berdengkur d medan empuk...ak n mard tersepit kt antr 2 katil..ats lantai!!huhu..tp ktowg berjye bolot 2slimut yg tebal..hahah..sian diowg sume sijuk..keskes...b4 tdo konon vote sape yg kne trn g breakfst..spatotnye kamm n illi..tp last2..sape pon xtrn..chet..nguhuhuhuh....so sume kne berseap coz by 1145 ktowg da nk kne chiow out from d room..tp cuna da menggunakn 1jm dlm toilet..ap yg di belek nye xtau r..hehhehe...

kamm n mard yg check in ats nme fiffy..so diowg r yg kne g check out..ngehehhe...
illi da blk ngan meghe n lee...
so tgl r ktowg 8 owg..
ktowg nk g mines...so we took water txi..kne rm8 sowg..agk affordable..hehehe...
pic nie pkck water taxi tue yg amek..seap die plak yg suggest amek part nie..hehhe..mmg da berpengalmn amek pic kt jeti nie kot..so..pkck bley join azar g photoshoot sony r..hehhe...










owg yg plg xcited naeek wtr txi nie..cuna r kot..coz xabes2 menikmati pemandangn n bjt die tgh dok ats titanic..n mlg nye naem xde..hehhehhe









ktowg stop kt bali...hahah..jaoh gle r ..from plce to bali..bajet memoirs of bali da..tp siyes..tmpt tue mmg lawa..rse cm bkn kt kl..bak kte cuna.."lawa jgk msia nie"...hahahha..swimming pool pon ala2 tepi pntai da......









~~welcome to BALI~~ole-ole BALI~~













again...kowg nek wtr txi from mines to ktm serdang...n kunun nk anvtr lg..nk naek bas r blk ipba...skali tggu punya tunggu...xde jgk bas..ak n mard da seap naek 1 bas nie yg nk g psr seni...n bas tue da seap jln da..bebdk yg laen sume mennonong je tgk ktowg dr bwh..bkn nye nk ckp xjd naek bas tu o nk soh ktowg trn ke hape...huhu..seb bek smpt r ak n mard mlompat trn..last2..naek komuter gk ktowg..msk dlm ktm..ktowg berkmpong tgh2 tu..seap dok bersile..hehhe..xde seat..cuna smpt lg nk g menyempit n dok kt krusi..bru je train jln die da krohhh da..Zzzzz..n xsdr ap yg blaku dlm ktm tue...tp xde r smpi abes ktowg dok kt bwh tue..da kosong tue..pepndi r cri seat..tp tue r cuna..sblah die ksg..bkn nye die sdr n nk cop kn utk bg owg ddk ke ap..die menten tdo..seb bek tym da smpi mid tue syafa igt cuna tgh tdo..klo x..sah2 cune kne tgl lg wt 2nd tym..hhehehe..mls r nk cte psl die ttgl 1st tym..hehheh..so..dr mid ktowg amek cab..n blk ke ipba...



wlopon perjlnn nie juz 1 ari je..tp ktowg sume rse da tggl kn blk tue cm da lme..cm da 1minggu xblk blk aka ipba..cm pg ntah mne2 tmpt yg jjaoh..pdhal...1 ari tue je pon..huhu..blk mmg KO r..hehhe..pape pon...mish u guys!!!