kids~

bak kata orang..tak kenal maka tak cinta...

tak kenal macam mana nak cerita~haha...

and that was my mistake when I first entered my class...

I was too concerned about the introduction part..

I didn't want to do the "typical" introduction session

asking ASL etc...

afraid that the students would take advantage

I went teaching straight away...continuing their previous lesson...

In my class...I always opt for group activity and presentation..

as I wanted them to speak more..in English...

it's the time for them to practice and use English...

and so...I noticed a few of them who love to do the presentation,

who are excited or not with the lesson...try to translate Malay words into English whenever I walk near them...and who refused to take part...

and there's a boy...

whom I noticed seems to be not bother at all...and I kept on reminding him to help his friends with their presentation...

dijadikan cerita..

before this..

teacher teramat pening kepala menanda summary anak2 murid...

ada yang tak faham article..

ada yang tak faham apa itu summary...

and only a few yang betul2 kenal apa itu summary..

so..

I bought a file for each one of them...

a JOURNAL file...

supposed...I wanted to buy a log book..tapi tak ada dekat Carefour Mid Valley..

and so it became JOURNAL file..

I asked them to write anything...about their feelings...their days..experiences..books or movie reviews...anything...as long as they write something...

and I gave them a piece of blank paper..

for them to sketch or write anything that represent themselves

basically...

I want them to write...to practice writing...in order to improve their writing skills..

the more you write...the better you will be...tak gitu? :D

so I asked them to write over the weekend and submit their journal file to me on Monday...

when I read their journals...

i learn more about my students...

the reasons behind their attitudes..

and that boy...

the boy that I thought who seemed not to bother at all...

he's actually emotionally unstable...

I guess maybe during that time..

he was frustrated about something..i don't know

maybe...

maybe...

they wrote about their days...

the sports carnival..that happened few days ago...

some won and some loss..

mostly about their lives...

and from that I can conclude that..

these kids...

they just want or need someone to listen...

listen to their stories...

listen to their needs...

that would be enough for them...

the thing is...we..human...we forget things easily...

we once a child like them..

and we do have that desires...once..

the desire for the adults to hear our voice..

but...as the time we grow older...we forget...

kita rasa...kids have to listen to us...not the other way round...

we forgot that..they've suffered enough..

to please others (families, teachers and schools)

by sacrificing their needs..their childhood...adolescence...their time..to play around...mingle..discover..

there's always a reason why people become who they are...

and so my students...

dan mereka perlukan kata2 semangat..

kata2 nasihat...

showing that people care about them...

after all hard work that they've done..

Kids....

Your Journal is not just a Journal..

you may think that it's just another essay that you have to complete as homework..

no...

I would like you to treat your Journal as part of your life..

no pressure...

since I give you the authority to decide on what you want to write...

Homework tu lain cerita lah :D

But through Journal...I hope you could improve your writing skills..

you may not realize it now..but sooner or later...

you will...

and kids...

please keep on writing..

I would love to read your stories...

in fact..I'm more excited to read your journal than your summary~~~ :D

teacher akan lakukan yang termampu untuk membantu anak2 murid teacher jadi pandai BI :D

remember..

don't be afraid of making mistakes..you'll learn from them...

and I'm no perfect person..I'm still learning...and most of the time kids..I learn from you~

ouch...

I guess I'm going to miss you guys...

oh my school!

oh my school! episod kali ini,

haha...ain..if you're reading this I bet it's because of the tittle.. hehe :D

but I'm not going to talk about the korean tv show..

today's topic is....

kerisauan seorang guru muda~ *gulp*

dear my students....

teacher harap...apa yang teacher ajar kamu...

masuk dalam kepala otak kamu...

teacher bukan apa...

teacher risau...

kalau2 lain yang teacher ajar kamu..

lain pula yang kamu dapat...

elok2 kamu dah faham apa yang teacher asal kamu ajar...

lepas teacher masuk kelas kamu..

terus kamu tak faham...

teacher pun tak tahu apa patut teacher buat..

patut teacher fokus pada topics yang akan masuk dalam July test..

atau those essential matters that you need to know and you need to learn?

dear my students...

memang teacher nak kamu jadi bijak pandai..

teacher nak kamu semua berani..

berani untuk menggunakan bahasa inggeris dalam percakapan..

I know you can speak Malay very well and you're comfortable to speak in Malay..

but I want you to use English as much as you can in my class..

because I know...

once you set your feet out of my English class...

you'll use your mother tongue..

that is why..

I would like to give you as many opportunities as I can for you to explore the language

and use the language...

don't be afraid of making mistakes...

because you'll learn from your mistakes..

I make mistakes too..and I'm still learning...

my grammar is not that great yet..but I'm still learning...

and I'm learning from you...

I learn from your mistakes...

because from your mistakes...I learn to improve myself..my teaching practice..and my beliefs

dear my students...

I'm not an experienced teacher...

I'm just a trainee teacher...

so forgive me if I'm not as good as your teacher..

and I hope you enjoy my lessons..

dan kamu faham apa yang teacher cuba sampaikan..

marilah sama2 kita belajar from each other...

teacher akan cuba jadi teacher yang terbaik untuk kamu...

dan teacher harap...

after these 3 months of practicum..I could proudly say that..

I'm a better person now...

and so my students~

*Can't smile without you*...by Barry Manilow~kids...I hope this song can replace your all time favourite *The lazy song* :D

budi bahasa budaya kita

usaha teacher untuk memartabatkan bahasa melayu dan memperkasakan bahasa inggeris berjalan dengan agak lancar.. :D

so far, teacher masih berjaya untuk menulis dalam bahasa melayu baku tanpa menggunakan perkataan2 singkatan..dalam istilah inggeris nya "short forms" :D

terasa diri ini amat puitis lah pula~

oh..budi bahasa budaya kita...

kata orang..bercakap biar berlapik..

cakap siang pandang2, cakap malam dengar2..

tapi masyarakat kita masih lagi memandang enteng peribahasa2 ini...

situasi:

di dalam pejabat sekolah yang diterangi lampu kalimantang di siang hari beranginkan penyaman udara...sedang kakak kerani pejabat membuat salinan fotokopi handouts2 guru2 pelatih, berpusu2 3 orang guru "terlatih" masuk ke pejabat untuk membuat salinan surat kenaikan pangkat masing2 *agaknya lah*

selepas kakak kerani yang baik hati (pada waktu itu) selesai, 3 orang guru pelatih hendak berlalu pergi..dengan misi hendak melarikan diri dari terserempak dengan ketua jabatan yang banyak pe'el nya..selepas guru2 pelatih ini menjejakkan kaki ke luar kawasan pejabat...

guru 1: patutnya jangan dilayan budak2 ni...ni ha..kita ni nak photocopy nak naik pangkat

guru 2: patutnya mana boleh pakai mesin kat pejabat...kita dulu..nak sentuh printer pon tak boleh..komputer..lagi la...dulu pakai duit sendiri ja nak photocopy bahan2

kakak kerani: betul tu...

*soksek2 mereka sedang ligat mengumpat guru2 pelatih...

kakak kerani 2: eh..nak photocopy ke?

guru pelatih yg ke-4: ha ah.. *sambil tersenyum*

guru 3: tapi kalau untuk students kita tak apalah...

*tidak sedar akan kehadiran guru pelatih yang ke-4 yang telah lama menahan panas telinga mendengarkan perbualan2 tidak berlapik dan cakap2 belakang guru2 bertiga*

*selesai kakak kerani membuat salinan handouts untuk guru pelatih ke-4

guru pelatih yg ke-4: terima kasih lah, students saya ada 60 orang..kalau tak habis duit saya dekat photocopy aje lah.. *sambil tersenyum dan berlalu pergi dengan sopan santunnya*

moral of the story...

why our people should be jealous of other people uh?

sifat hasad dengki inilah yang suatu hari nanti akan membinasakan bangsa sendiri..

talking behind other people's back is one thing..

if you really mean it..why can't you tell us?

tell us that we're not supposed to use the school facilities such as printing etc?

if the principal has no problem with us using the photocopy machine, why should you?

after all..the materials are for your students sake too..

kami bersengkang mata mencari bahan2 yang sesuai..to help the students to improve their English...

but why you have to cover what you've said with statement yang tidak masuk akal?

contradicting..

of course...definitely..we're printing and photocopying stuff for your students..

tak adalah pulak niat photocopy 50-60 helai untuk dibuat pekasam setiap hari..

keikhlasan kami sebagai guru baru diperlekehkan...

kami tahu kami guru pelatih...

ilmu tak sedalam mana..

tapi perlukah kami di anak tirikan? semata2 usia kami yang jauh berbeza dengan anda?

the issue is..who's the one that doing personal matters?photocopy untuk kenaikkan pangkat atau photocopy untuk kecemerlangan pelajar?

sikap guru2 "terlatih" yang mengejar pangkat dan gaji sebeginilah yang mencalarkan prestasi pelajar2..

no wonder the students' performances are degrading..and same goes to their attitudes..

why? because they learn from the experts..yes...YOU!

apart from that...i feel very disappointed..because one of the teachers is someone that i knew..

the other two...who cares~but I recognise their faces..

being a student..in your eyes...the teachers are the captains..masters of all trades..they know everything..and they are not being sceptical or judgemental towards others..

but now..

being a colleague..i realised...they all are just human..they are no saint...some of them..

and i hope..my respect to my teachers that i've known for years won't fade away...

just like my respect to these 3 teachers...

and hope..this incident can be a reminder to myself too..

indahnya bila cuti

today is a holiday~yeay...

it's been a while I guess not having this kind of feeling~

laying in bed..until the sun rises~

last week i've been working for a week....

seronoknya teacher dapat cuti~ :D

Last time..I guess it was last week..

I went to a forum conducted by NRC..

the talk was given by Dato' Freida Pilus, the founder of Sri Cempaka School

and her talk opened my mind..to view things from other perspectives

people said there's always a 2-side of a story..

but I guess there's more..

she talked about education..

about the importance of challenging mind, body and soul..

she talked about her life...how she became who she is now..

she is like the Malaysian version of Oprah..

as she came from a poor family...she went to all the hardship..

sticking to her beliefs that if others can do...she can do it too...

and because she beliefs that education is very important..

she became who she is now..

she owns few private schools..

http://www.cempaka.edu.my/index_cilc.html

when people asked her about her opinion of Science and Maths in Enlish/Bahasa Malaysia..

she replied..

"Knowledge has no barriers, and language must not be one of them" (Freida Pilus, 2011)

"It does not really matter,knowledge can be obtained in many languages, learn as many as possible " (Freida Pilus, 2011)

her statements had opened my eyes..my mind..

it's true..language shouldn't be a barrier for us to gain knowledge..

people used to learn the language that the knowledge is in...

you can refer to the histories of algebra, sciences, medic etc..

how the travellers seek for knowledge..

the western learned Arabic as they tried to get the knowledge from Ibn Sina, Al-Khawarizmi etc

but our people love to give excuses..

hendak seribu daya tak hendak seribu dalih..

if you never try..how are you supposed to know?

I used to think that learning Sc and Maths in English could help our children to learn these subjects better when they are in tertiary education..

since these will be taught in English..

I admit..learning Biology, Chemistry and Maths in Matriculation was quite tough..

as if I had to start from the scratch..learning the terms in English..etc..

but then, I realised, most of my friends survived their years in Matriculation..

although they used to learn those subjects in Bahasa and later had to translate them in English

these shown that be it in any language,

if you have the will to learn, to seek for knowledge,

you could overcome all the obstacles that are standing in front of you..

moreover, learning other languages will do no harm to you..

trust me.. :D

I think..from today onwards, I would like to use BM baku in my writing..

bahasa melambangkan bangsa..

and so your writing~ :D

gasp...
it's been a long time...since my last post~ahahha..n tu pon psl amek lesen yg xlulus tu...but don't worry people..because i succeeded the 2nd trial~ahaha..with flying car~*LAME gile*

so...skang dah msk musim practicum...where i will be tested...whether i am qualified to be a teacher or not..chewah~klo x..nk jd ape????keje jual karipap la gamak nye~

it has been almost 2 weeks la...practical kt skolah....hahaha...skolah mne...the school that i used to walk here and there as a student..and now...as a teacher~

so pasnie...will update stories 'bout my students la~~~~i teach Form4 and Form 2 students~

urgh...says who teaching profession is easy???habaq mai...susah gila!!!!!!!
belajar penat2 5 1/2 tahun...fine..our courses are quite easy compared to other courses..but still...once you step into this profession...trust me...your life is over..ahhaha...*OVER gila*

dlu2...tgk ckgu2 mengajar kt skolah..rse cm...senang je jd ckgu nie..hari2..masuk kelas..ajar ape yg patot..yg nk msk exam..pastu..bg budak2 jawab soklan..exam..test..abes test...tau nk mnx markah bonus je from ckgu...pastu celebrate hari guru..ank2 murid bg hadiah...pastu..ckgu2 la plg byk dpt cuti dlm 1thn..sbb cuti skolah pjg..boleh g jln2...

klo anda msh lg berfikiran sebegitu....
anda...

SILAP!!!!!

realiti jd ckgu nie xseindah mcm anak murid pk~
1st...evryday u have to think about what you want to teach to your students...different classes..different lessons...let say if u have 2 classes on dat day..different forms plak tu..n different period..u have 2 crack ur brain n plan 2 different lessons...itu klo dpt 2 klas...realiti ckgu2 dpt 25period per week..ak dpt 8 pon dah tongtengtongteng~
2nd...u hve 2 write your lesson plan yg amat leceh...ok...realiti nie plg sesuai utk ckgu2 practicum mcm ak..because we will be assessed based on our lesson plan..so evrything must be written in details~igt senang ke????nk kne make sure lesson tu...each step ad flow~~~~
3rd...u have 2 face ur students everyday~laen org laen ragam...n same goes to ur kids~~~~nie bru dpt 55 students..da pening pale cmne la nk bg diorg nie behave...klo dpt 5 klas??nie naseb baek sbp..klo skolah harian...lg la ANTIC ragam diorg~~~
4th....igt ckgu2 nie suke sgt ke nk bg homework???NO!sbb penat nk kne mark korg punye kerja~~~dah la abes masa nk pk lesson plan...pastu nk kne mark korg punye essays la...summaries la..suruh buat 10 sentences pon dah tunggang terbalik je ckgu tanda kertas korg..ikot hati malas je nk bg homework sume2 nie...tp tula...mengenangkan ckgu2 nie sume nk tlong korg menjdi insan berilmu...terpkse la~sama2 la kite terpaksa memberi n membuat homework~ahhaha
itu bru practical tu..bujang lg...nnt da kawen sok???nk pk psl kerja lg..psl ank murid lg...psl rumah lg...haru2...no wonder my mom always said nk pencen je~~~
5th..korg igt tu je ke keje ckgu nie????SALAH!!byk lg..klo ko pegang PIBG..lg byk ko kne pk..klo ko pegang KOOPERASI skolah..lg byk ko kne pk..klo ko pegang TEAM skolah..lg byk ko kne pk...klo ko pegang PANITIA bahasa or mana2 subject...lg byk ko kne pk...moral of d story is...ckgu2 nie byk lg kerja2 sampingan yg memenatkn otak mereka...
6th...korg igt kertas soklan exam korg tu turun dri langit ke????SALAH!!!sume nye ckgu2 korg la yg kne pk tau x..igt nk wt soklan tu senang ke??SALAH!!!hahaha...

kesimpulannye..ko jd ckgu bru ko tau....padan muka ak!

tp xpela...the damage has been done~hahaa...
ikhlas kn hati...jd ckgu nk aja anak2 murid..soh jd ckgu!so bila da jd ckgu bru diorg tau~~ahaha
*mcm sumpahan ckgu marina n ckgu zainon pd ak 5thn yg lepas*
ahaha..

psl students2 ak...next time la cite~nie pon dah pjg~

owh...lesson plan for tomorrow xseap lg n xabes pon marking kerja2 bdk2 form4..
miss raihan signing out~

the judging eyes~

seems like it has been ages since my last post...

well...

today i realized that..no matter what u do...there will always be the judging eyes..

those who will always watching u...every single little thing that u do...n u will be criticized if u made a tiny tiny lil mistake...

situation 1:

venue: driving centre

occasion: people were waiting for their turn to be tested by the JPJ.....part 2...BUKIT, PARKING, "3PENJURU"...

i was the 2nd last person for the 1st session..so..had 2 wait for my turn...dang...79..byk tu..

so..while waiting...i observed n watched how people did their tests...the 1st 4cars were excellent i would say...since they passed the bukit easily...n den..people started to fail..one by one...oh...it was raining before the test started..so..jln def licin..n i guess kebanyakkan yg fail were those yg xbiasa with the cars..so..going back to the story of the judging eyes..i could hear people criticizing others...like

"owh..she breaks too early"

"owh...he must be...."

"owh..he failed because it's his 2nd time oredy"

bla bla bla....

can't they juz keep their thought to themselves???

i mean...u don't have to say out loud every single thing...n i know you were discussing with your friends..but..duhh...you're emotionally n mentally torturing others that might having nervous breakdown or wutsoeva...

urgh..n failing bukit serta merta was soooo damn embarrassing....because of all the judging eyes were looking at u...as if the eyes were laughing at u...saying.."silly u..bukit senang pon xboleh ke?"

situation 2:

venue: inside komuter from kl central to midvalley

occasion: depends on individual~mine was mengubati hati yg lara by wandering around mid..soo xde keja..

ok..what really happened was...i went into the women's coach..n got 2 minah salleh..biasalah...msia nie kn panas compared 2 their hometown..so they just wore sleeveless shirts..for them it's something common..nothing weird about wearing those white shirts tgh pns2...but i think they realized..there were 100pairs of judging eyes..staring at them *k find..i exaggerated this part..but who cares...* as if the eyes were screaming "seksinye la omputih nie..xreti ke nk pki elok2 sopan2 sket"..later..the 2 of them take out their cardi n wore them...i guess..omputih nie pon phm our culture..but somehow i pity them...haish...

we can never run away from these evil eyes i guess...or can we??

erti hidup

time keje..idea nk tules ape kt blog mencurah2 kt dlm pale otak...

ble da balik...da smpi umah..xde mode la plak..huhu..

but still..

xpela...meh la cte sket...

well..

it's almost a month now since i work..

(3days everyweek---friday till sunday....monday till thursday ade class)

hoho...

i work as a cleaner/room attendant/ housekeeper/ any other synonyms to describe working at a hotel..cleaning the toilets, do the beds, dusting bla bla bla..

wuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

baru sedar erti HIDUP!~~~~ T_T

erti HIDUP:

jadi student slame nie..rse cm asek nk enjoy je..

"hidup nie muda lagi..enjoy dulu"

cliche: live your life to the fullest

jadi student slame nie..rse cm da terok sgt kn..

bile pk2 balik..

ape je student life nie kn..

duet..xpyah nk terok2 cri..

elaun merate...kpm la..mara la..jpa la..ptptn la..pama la..

keje pon..balik2.. wat esaimen, g klas (tu pon klo rjin la kn), exams, tests, bla bla bla

yg laen tu..

kehidupan dihabis kn dgn...

-tgk wayang

-makan

-tido

-maen

-bla bla bla

tapi ble da keje nie...

baru sedar erti HIDUP!~~~~ T_T

erti HIDUP:

jadi cleaner/room attendant/ housekeeper/ any other synonyms to describe working at a hotel..cleaning the toilets, do the beds, dusting bla bla bla..

yg keje:

-nak kene sental dinding toilet smpi kilat (guna segala maknenek chemicals)

-nak kene sental bath tub smpi kilat (guna segala maknenek chemicals)

-nak kene cuci jamban smpi kilat (guna segala maknenek chemicals)

-nak kene cuci sinki smpi kilat (guna segala maknenek chemicals)

-nak kene cuci kepala paip smpi kilat (guna segala maknenek chemicals)

-nak kene tuka cadar (katil mcm2 size..king, 2queens, 2single 1 queen)

-nak kene pasang cadar (katil mcm2 size..king, 2queens, 2single 1 queen)

-nak kene buang sampah

-nak kene ganti stock tea n milk

-nak kene lap habuk2

-nak kene vacuum bilik

-nak kene sembur bilik bagi wangi

terpakse berkorban

-tenaga (3days everyweek---friday till sunday....monday till thursday ade class)

-masa (3days everyweek---friday till sunday....monday till thursday ade class)

-kesihatan (rosak jari jemari sbb guna segala maknenek chemicals, saket pinggang, saket kaki)

jadi student slame nie..rse cm da terok sgt kn..

bile pk2 balik..esp bile da kerja jadi cleaner/room attendant/ housekeeper/ any other synonyms to describe working at a hotel..cleaning the toilets, do the beds, dusting bla bla bla..

rse mcm..

terok nye la keje..

sebab nk cri duet..

kalo dlu mse mude2 *sdar dri da tua*

klo nk keje part time..sume sbb kepentingan dri sndri...

nak kumpol duet byk2...

nk bli tu..nk bli nie..

rse dri cm kaya ble ade byk duet..

dlu klo denga keje gji dpt rm400 sebulan pon da rse cm..pergh..byk nye duet..

tp skang nie..

baru sedar erti HIDUP!~~~~ T_T

erti HIDUP:

duet nie..klo nk ikot hati..

smpi ble2 xkan penah cukop...

makin hari..makin pk..

byk bnde nk kne guna duet...

keje terok..nk cri duet..

klo dlu cri duet sbb utk kepentingan dri sndri...

tp skang nie..insyaAllah..sbb utk org laen..utk keluarga sndri...

baru sedar...

duet nie bukan turun dri langit bergolek msk bank mcm tu je...

bukan berkepuk msk akaun..

hari2 nk check online banking...duet da msk ke blom..

ble nk dpt elaun...

nk cri duet nie bukan senang..

sesenang mulut berkata "ko boleh la..banyak duet..keje"

duet banyak xguna pon..nak simpan bukan boleh bawak mati..

duet nie sume..nak bg kat mak bapak..tanggung adik2..

sbb skang nie ak rse..

ble da keje nie

patot ringan kn beban mak bapak nk tanggung adik2...

kalo nk bli brg2 nie pon..sume pk psl family dlu..

last2 ble blk..

tgk2..xde ape pon bli utk dri sndri

*alhamdulillah niat baek..Allah permudahkan dan murahkn rezeki ak..ad offer lg best dri yg asal ak nk bli utk dri ak..sume nye insyaAllah...sbb ak dahulukn keluarga ak..

setiap kali keje..

mcm2 bnde yg ak pk..

antaranya...

*ya Allah...terok nye la keje nk cri duet...kalo nk compare keje ak yg xseberapa nie..dgn keje2 yg ayah ak wat slame nie

-risk kn keselamatan..naek kpl terbang..jage negara org..bertahon2-yg dlu byk gle kes kpl terbang terhempas sini sana..alhamdulillah..xde pape jd..

-risk kn keselamatan..naek kpl laut..tgkp hasil laut..jual...lari dri marine..---terok ak tgk ayh ak evrytym blk dri laut...makin itam sbb sunburn...elok je jual boat..seminggu lps tu tsunami..

-risk kn kesihatan..naek hilux...keje dlm kebon sawit..meracun rumput..bakar semak..blabla..smpi sakit pinggang...ayah ku da tua~~~ T_T

ya Allah...terok nye la keje nk cri duet...kalo nk compare keje ak yg xseberapa nie..dgn keje2 yg mak ak wat slame nie..jd ckgu pon igt senang ke???dgn budak2 1001 perangai..abes practicum ritu..rse cm 1step closer to reality..aaaaaa....

nie...keje bru sebulan..teap2 ari ak xsaba nk tggu ble nk benti keje..

mcm mne la mak bapak nie bley bersabar dgn keje2 yg diowg wt bertaon2..

sume bkn sbb kepentingan dri sndri..

tp sume sbb dok pk anak2...

anak nk mkn

anak nk skolah

anak nk tu

anak nk ni

penat cmne pon..saba jela..

*bru pham prasaan mak ak yg slalu rse cm nk mnx pencen awl sbb da pnt keje..

tp tyme tu kn xkeje lg..xphm workload itu ape scr practical nye...

ble da kje nie..huuuu....bru ko tau penat ke xpenat...

baru sedar erti HIDUP!~~~~ T_T

kesimpulannye..simpulkn sndri~terima kasih

sayangilah ibu bapa anda~ :D

berhati2 dijalan raya..ingatlah orang tersayang