busy~

why do i feel that time past slower today than when i was in school during my pract????

my housemate said it's because i don't have to think about lesson plans,

what to teach the students...what to tell etc..

but in ipba..

what i did today was..

"listening" to the lecture~~~aaaahhh..

totally made me wanna go back to school and teach..

one of the reasons why i don't want to take masters..cukup2 la with degrees~~

haiye...

i guess...

i need to get a grip of myself before i start to lose it~

and..

i guess..

i'm going to blog more frequent than before..

pics of gifts from my students and from Mdm R and english panel~

told you it's like a wedding gift~hahaha... :D

i didn't realize there were stars in it..and my lil sis who found out about it~

so these are all "hasil tangkapan" of the day~~

thanks peeps~

here some shots taken on my last week in SMAPK~

from the back:

arman,faathir,farith,hashymi,iqbal,muaz,muhaimin,hazim,amir,hadif,hafiz,adam,munir,syafiq

at the front:

anas,farhana,emy,aimi,fatin,deanna,saidatul,aishah and jannah

my form 2 kids~

i know we didn't end our class with a nice memory..

but i hope that night somehow did make up for the rough day we had...

will never forget when the boys singing "maafkan kami" and the specifically unrequested "cinta muka buku" hahah

you guys are awesome kids~

back row: akma,sarah,izzah,alfizah,syakirah,faizah,afiqah

front row: fatin,malihah,adila,amirah,iman

my form4 girls..

who enjoyed seeing their "naive" teacher getting prank by them..hahah...

these beautiful kids~haiye...

owh...fatihah was not in the picture~

fatihah please get well soon~~~

back row: fauzan,hisyam,syazwan,nasri,ihsan,fahim,hafiz,arif,amier,mubarak

front row: shahrul,naufal,faiz,asyraf,muhammad,naqiuddin,syafiq

my form4 boys...

i wonder what happened at that time

but it's good that you guys looked so happy~

poor syafiq because he's barely there in the pic..arif pulak been blocked by muhammad

kids...

i will never forget

when muhammad fainted but no one seemed to care...haha..

instead you guys fell into my baits: coke and 100plus...hahah :D

poor muhammad~

i appreciate the fact that you kids tried to surprise me...

i enjoyed that moment very much..

till i had crammed eyebrows...hahah...

dang...

why la your teacher is sooo sweet...

blogging about you kids...

bukan nye korang ingat teacher pon kan~~ sobs~~~

get back to reality

wow..

3 months...

seemed too short...

but now i have to face the reality

that my practicum time is over..

no more writing lesson plans..

no more rushing to the class...

no more waiting for the students to submit their works..

if only i could tell my kids how much i miss them...

kids...

i hope you are doing great..

even without me...torturing you~

even without me...pushing you~

don't look for me tomorrow..

as i'm not going to be there at school..

but

i will always be here for you...

praying for your success

especially for you upcoming exams..

please make me proud.. :D

A and A+ ok!

A+ english call teacher and i'll treat you :D

by the way..

thanks for the presents~

very sweet of you kids..

although somehow i kinda feel like i got wedding gifts

*jug kettle and tea set*

shawls from the kids as well as from mdm R and english panel,

cards...

book..

etc..

i do appreciate all of them...

funny thing was..

last night..

i dreamed that i entered my 4Marikh class...*science class*

but i had to teach them accounting..how funny was that???
i never learn accounting before and it was a SCIENCE class!!!

hurm..

i guess i've been thinking about my kids all day long and got carried away..

i hope you'll never forget me kids!

as i will try my best not to forget you lot! :D

well now i guess..

my biological clock is going back to normal..

i mean..

not as normal as normal people have..

either i will go through insomnia again or excessive sleepiness disorder again..

i realized that only during practical time i had a NORMAL sleeping time... T_T

ok..

need to push my self to sleep..

it's midnight already..

i don't have the heart to go to the DKA tomorrow~simply MALAS!!!

just like anaqi said..

"baik fail kan practicum and pergi balik sekolah mengajar"

but..

of course i don't want to flunk my practicum

kids..

jangan tidur during english class tomorrow! :D

pi mai pi mai tang tu

haish...

people said..

life is like a wheel..once you'r up..the next time you'r down..

tapi kenapa cepat sangat?

baru je bangun..

dah jatuh balik~

i don't want to spoil the mood since it's my last class with the lil ones..

tapi tula..

shit happens...

@_@

ay

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never thought that 2 girls came to me just now...

they were apologizing for what happened in class this morning...

and i was touched by their sincere apologies..

then i realized that they started to cry...

the moment i hugged them..

i felt like i wanted to cry too...

but have to be strong...

i've forgiven your wrong doings~

it is just that i had to give you guys a wake up call...

ay

p/s: rasa serabut sangat with the clock right in front of me showing that it's 8.45 since this morning but it's already 2.09...urghh..the clock is messing with my brain right now~~~ @_@

the end

saat jatuh dah lepas..

dan sekarang adalah masa untuk bangkit dari zaman kejatuhan~

well...dah nak habis practicum dah..

rasa kejap je..

last 3 months, when i first entered the school..

rasa macam...

"huish..lama nya nak tunggu 3 months..."

"how am i going to survive my practicum..."

bla bla bla..

but now..tinggal lagi 4 days...

i have only 1 class left with my form2 students and 2 more with my form4 students...

still..

there are more things that i've planned to do with them..

but i'm running out of time...

seems like 3 months are not enough...

kids...

i'm sorry i couldn't keep my promises..

the promises that i've made to myself..

to help with your summary..

to help with your argumentative essays...

to help with your reading comprehension...

to help you improve your speaking skills..

and many more...

hopefully...

apa yang teacher dah ajar korang..ada la masuk sikit2...

tak banyak pon 150% masuk pon jadi la~ :D

i've been through ups and downs with my kids..

they've taught me a lot of how to be a good teacher..

"a good teacher teaches..but great teacher inspires"

of course i want to be one of the great teachers...just like those who have been my inspirations..

my mom *indirectly* thanks to her that i chose this profession..seriously...

my teachers..especially cikgu natrah and cikgu zuriyal who both had changed my life..and influenced my styles..

my english teachers since primary to secondary schools..who never fail to make me feel bored with english...

but..to become a great teacher, i need to learn how to be a good teacher first..

hopefully i've been a good teacher to all of you~

life is never perfect...

but we learn to live perfectly in imperfections :D

kids..

having all of you as my students is an honour..

despite your "eagerness" to submit your homework on time

despite your "energetic" responses to all my questions..which i ended up generously talking to the fans spinning above my head and becoming Ms Broom~ :D

despite your "200%" focus on my lessons...

i enjoy the time we had together...

the time i mistakenly took the arabic dictionary while trying to search for an english word

the time i watched you acting like "husband and wife" because you turned up late~

the time i was amazed with your creativeness in producing your own skits, posters, cinquain

the time you made jokes about jet ski, plumber *actually i almost laughed at the jet ski joke...but had to maintain my straight face :D*

so hopefully..

you will always remember me and regard me as your teacher~

and hopefully..

i could still remember you in 20 years from now...getting old..forget things easily..

*ceh...no need to wait until 20 years..you guys baru 14-16 pon already giving me excuses "i'm sorry teacher, i forgot"

well..i guess...that is one of cliche excuses that i'm going to hear in my next 24 years of teaching..

itu pon kalau i'm still a teacher la kan..

kalau kahwin laki kaya..i could retire early, stay at home or go for shopping ke kan..

haha..

naaaa...i guess i'm going to stick with this profession as you kids make me realized how i love this profession..

geesh..i hate farewell....

p/s: just finished reading my old posts...and realized how lame i was...but..somehow i'm very proud of myself as i realized that i have improved in my style...hahah..well..everyone has their LAME moments~ so do i~

saat jatuh

blehhhhhhhhhhh....

tak suka nya bila dihampakan..

why?

what did i do wrong this time?

tahniah..

anda berjaya mematahkan semangat teacher..

"kalau taknak belajar..teacher pon taknak mengajar dah"

first time i feel so down...

masa kena condemn with baginda supervisor..walau bengang tahap gaban sekali pun..

i still felt excited to teach my students..

bersungguh2 cari bahan and activities yang seronok..

so that takde la mengantok belajar english tengah hari..

****

bila fikir balik..

ni baru sbp..

kalau posting sekolah harian..

entah macam mana la nasib nanti..

blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

wishes

it's funny when you know what your students think of you~~~haha...

and it's always about your status...single/married....

-_-"

haish...

last time..jadi MADAM tak pasal2...since when i got married pun i don't know..

haha..so had to explain to them difference between MADAM and MISS...

and then..unit perperiksaan pulak printed my name as PUAN NOOR RAIHAN....

yesterday...my form2 students asked me...

student A: teacher, where are you going to celebrate raya?
teacher: my hometown...
student: where?
teacher: don't know yet...
student B: teacher...you have how many hometown?
teacher: 2
teacher: my father's side and my mother's...2 lah..why?
students: we thought you are married~

haih...sudah terang lagi bersuluh i told them to call me MISS Raihan..and even when they greet me dalam kelas pon they called me MISS Raihan...again...had to explain the difference between MISS Raihan and MADAM Rahimaton...although the initial both would be MR...hehe...
do i look like someone who already married??haha...

and during my extra class with my form4 students pon...they asked...

studentA: teacher bila nak kawen?
teacher: tula..haish..kalau ada confirm i dah bagi u kad...
studentB: xpe..insyaAllah ada...
studentC:xpe..malam ni lailatulqadar...
teacher: doa banyak2 k :D

haha...and today...i received kad raya from my form4 students..

the funny thing was..when i read the wishes from my boys...

hahaha...wish number 1 tu yang paling tak boleh blah...thanks for your wishes..keep on praying for teacher :D

dah kalau students keep on wishing me and semua pon asyik tersasul2 aje...laju la sikit kot jumpa :D amiin~~~

definitely i will invite all of you nanti... :D

so happy eid mubarak everyone...

sedih sebenarnya because i didn't have class with them today~

dah la quite a few yang dah balik yesterday~

but i know all of them were very excited sebab tak ada class...dah la tu...dapat duit raya lagi...

last time during my time...mana ada dapat duit raya~ T_T

hopefully i could see all of you right after the school break ends~come back in one piece~

dang...after that..i only have 4 weeks before my practicum ends~~~ *dislike this*

happy eid mubarak...

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kiddos~

it has been a long time since my last post..

pheww..

well..what else would i talk about if not about my dearest students..

how they made me proud and how they disappointed me..or maybe how i have disappointed them..

this morning...my cooperating teacher observed my form2 class...and i was very nervous this morning..i went to the loo for 3 times..rasa semacam je..as if i get the feeling that i'm going to screw up my lesson...

so i went to my class early..to set up everything and to make sure that my students were ready for the lesson..

entahla..maybe because i'm too nervous, i talked faster than usual..and my lesson finished 20minutes early...after that..blank..i didn't know what to do..calling for desperate need..i told my cooperating teacher and asked her what i should do next...

after that i felt so frustrated...not because of the feedback given by my cooperating teacher..

indeed i admit what my cooperating teacher said were true..and i accepted it as i'm still learning..

nama pon student teacher kan..but...i felt frustrated looking at my students' reactions and responds to my lesson..

before this...tak pernah la nak menguap..or terlelap ke...but today they did...it's always during my observation with my cooperating teacher..supposedly they would behave themselves as my cooperating teacher is actually their own English teacher...but..they seemed not bother at all...

hari ni lah nak buat perangai...why????

after that..rasa macam tak mampu dah nak harungi hidup ni...

even other teacher also asked me why i looked so tired..

then...something happened..ceh..

just now i had extra class with my form4 students...rajin kan?

basically i was discussing the answers for their July test...so almost half of the class la yang datang..i didn't force them to come...i gave them freedom..haha..*from now on..whenever i said freedom i'm going to remember one of my students :D* ok..freedom to choose...whether they want to come or not..so seeing the responds..ok..i realised that when we learn to let go instead of holding on..they will come back to us...haha..macam what sheryll did to us last time la..conflict2..because she insisted on wanting us to behave, read the articles beforehand, turn up in tutorials.blablabla..sampai lah one day she walked out from the class..saying that she won't care anymore...and she never force us after that...everyone pon happy je..datang je..and dia pon tak ada dah nak pengsan2 sampai masuk hospital dah...

so ok la...bila lebih dari 10 orang yang datang kan...

so we discussed all the answers...bila dah habis...i asked them whether they have any questions..

and then all of them asking me to tell stories...hahah...so we talked...and talked.. and i told them how proud i am seeing their poster hanging outside of their classroom...i seriously thought that they were going to paste it inside their classroom...and so far..they have never let me down...haha..tu pon sebab i never gave them homework dah..susah sangat nak buat homework..

haha...they asked me about my blog..na'a...i won't tell you..hahaha.. :D