unwell

hurm..

after pangkor trip..

i had cricket training~it was fun..

but again..

i had to stand under the very hot sun...

got burn..again...

and..

the mood swing weathers..

it was hot in the morning right till the afternoon and...

evening until night..it was raining~~~

so...

i guess..

Mr Fever is coming to visit me~~~

starting to get headache...flu...sore throat..cough~~~aaaaaaaaaaa

please pray for me...getting well soon..

luckily got 1 week holiday~

:D

nice song

Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter

from "Closer" movie

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you...
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

nice song

mixed

ok..

my trip to pangkor was excellent~~part of it..hurm...

well..

we (my group, 39 0f us) went there with our juniors..2011 intakes...

so can you imagine the age differences? 17+/18 and 23/24 years old?

hurm..

at Pangkor,

we did water confidence, kayaking, abseiling..and most of the time we spent in the sea water~~~

it's FUN~

but of course..you gain one thing you lose one thing~

i got tanned~euphemism of sun burnt~hoho..

and i became dehydrated since i got back from Pangkor..

hot+lack of water

and we had LDK (latihan dalam kumpulan) where we were divided into 4 groups..

2 juniors groups and 2 seniors groups..

we had several inter-group competitions..

and the seniors' groups kept on winning and exchanging the 1st place and 2nd place..

so i could see the changes in the juniors' reactions whenever the lecturer kept on complementing us, the seniors, and condemning them...

i knew exactly the feeling when people kept on saying how good the others were..

and i knew exactly the feeling when people kept on comparing you with others...

been there~

but..sometimes..

we didn't realize the reason why people did so...

because they wanted us to improve~to change~to become better...

moreover, 5 years different tells everything..

the maturity..

we've grown so many ways especially the way we think..

the way we view things

the way we do things...

these kids they are fresh from ovens..they're young..they're still new..

so they perhaps couldn't see the stuff that we saw...

while they kept on competing with the other group,

we kept on supporting other group...

we support each other..we back up each other..

well..

again..we used to be like them..

hopefully, soon they will learn and change~ :D

ok..so that's mind talking~

the rational me~

so...

should i let the heart talks too???

the half part of Pangkor experience...the not-so-excellent-part..

was when the past was hunting me~

hate that!

why?????

urghhhh...

unsettled

unresolved

confusing

mixed feelings

one time it felt like walking on the cloud nine..seven heaven

one time it felt like sh*t...

misery

%$^(&^&#!#!@#$%^&*%$^%#&#?!~

3days

ok..so tomorrow~i mean today...it's already 1.21 am now.. i'll be off to PANGKOR~~

woha!

so...i'm going to be away for 3 days~and might switch off my data services since i have to save the batt~~chances of not having power supply to charge my phone~~~ -_-"

so..i've packed everything and hopefully nothing will be left behind~~the last time i went for a trip was last year~~~winter trip...hurm...

so...*ok i'm excessively using SO now...hopefully everything will be fine~~~insyaAllah...

crap crap crap

i know i should have done other things right now instead of blogging,

but somehow, i just want to procrastinate~

procrastinating is the best policy when you're lazy like crazy~~woha!

well, today i feel a bit relieve..

i've submitted my practicum portfolio and buku record to 'The Supervisor'

i thought i won't see him anymore after my practicum..

i guess i was wrong..and when i met him...

the words came from him were

"ha...the long overdue" - referring to me and robot for late submitting the portfolios and books..

well..he didn't call us...telling us when and where to meet...

soooo typical of him...haiye...

but...

who cares?

just put on your poker face, smile and wave...

the moment i handed my stuffs..i felt like half of the burden went away...

so now...i have to think of my other assignment..the reflective task....

and the due is on Monday..soo..today is Friday...

chillax~i already have some ideas on my mind right now..

it is just that i need some time to translate my ideas into words...which is one of my biggest problem..

but...for now...lets not think about it...yet...haha :D

owh..i'm looking forward for next week's Pangkor trip..

i know i'm going to get a free tanning there...but...there's nothing can compare to the experience and the time i have with my besties (although not all 10 of us will be there.. :'( ...only 4 of us)
haiye...

speaking of which..i've never been there~pulau2 ni..langkawi je yang pernah sampai...

itu pon not when i was still in Kedah...

nobody believed me when i said i never been to langkawi before although i lived in Kedah for 7 years~

hurmm...

actually..

i've been meaning to write other things but ended up..

i'm crapping about these stuffs above this...

owh...

last sem..it was the wedding season..

where my friends were talking about wedding, the gowns, the hantarans, the marriage etc...

where the wedding magazines became the bible instead of our coursebook and assignments~

and now...after the practicum..it is the NEWBORN season..

and the topic will be all about babies..babies' names...who's going to give birth..their nieces~

owh yeah...this year is the year of baby girl..where those people that gave birth this year, those who we know had gave birth to cute baby girl...

my cousin - baby girl, last april i guess..arissa

kamm's angah - baby girl, last august kot...hana effah (kam betol kan ejaan ni? :D)

kamm's along - baby girl, last week...rubyna

chuna's kak in - baby girl..yesterday~..alisya~~

see..

told you..

ok..i'm drifting away from the previous topic~

*malas dah nak baca balik*

ok..short notes about things happened this week:

1. went to school to pick up some forms from Mdm R and Mdm Z... i was soo happy to see my kids~although i might not show them how excited i was to see all of them..i feel bad knowing the fact that they have to split for english class since there's not enough teachers to teach them...
2. Wednesday night - TESL night by the juniors...i was soo surprised seeing them more "overseas" than us who actually went to overseas..more Hollywood than Hollywood.. well you see....the lecturers here were worried about us coming back with those western influences..culture shock..like our seniors in previous cohorts..but alhamdulillah, we still know where we come from..we never forget our roots~ and last 2 nights, i was shocked with the juniors...wearing skirts and dresses above knee lengths, some wearing tights or pantyhose and some didn't..it's not only the nons..but also the muslims...what you want to wear outside the college is up to you..i respect your right and hope that one day you'll change but to dress improperly for college event i guess it's not professional..and bare in mind...you're going to be a teacher..so dress yourself like one..seeing the college culture now make me feel like i'm in overseas again..you know what i mean~ young blood~
3. today i met my bestie..with her mom~haha..although it was very short..but at least we could see each other..since now she started working in terengganu..so it's going to be more difficult for us to see each other..

so...next week i'm going to Pangkor...

then on saturday i have handball match~haha..

sunday..umair's wedding~my schoolmate...need to look for a driver~hahah...siapa yang kena?

so..am not going back home this weekend an next weekend~ :(

but..hoping that maklong would be around at her home..so that i could pay her a visit..

and to see my beloved naughty nephews and lovely niece~

kiddos...wait for your auntie aina~ :D

busy~

why do i feel that time past slower today than when i was in school during my pract????

my housemate said it's because i don't have to think about lesson plans,

what to teach the students...what to tell etc..

but in ipba..

what i did today was..

"listening" to the lecture~~~aaaahhh..

totally made me wanna go back to school and teach..

one of the reasons why i don't want to take masters..cukup2 la with degrees~~

haiye...

i guess...

i need to get a grip of myself before i start to lose it~

and..

i guess..

i'm going to blog more frequent than before..

pics of gifts from my students and from Mdm R and english panel~

told you it's like a wedding gift~hahaha... :D

i didn't realize there were stars in it..and my lil sis who found out about it~

so these are all "hasil tangkapan" of the day~~

thanks peeps~

here some shots taken on my last week in SMAPK~

from the back:

arman,faathir,farith,hashymi,iqbal,muaz,muhaimin,hazim,amir,hadif,hafiz,adam,munir,syafiq

at the front:

anas,farhana,emy,aimi,fatin,deanna,saidatul,aishah and jannah

my form 2 kids~

i know we didn't end our class with a nice memory..

but i hope that night somehow did make up for the rough day we had...

will never forget when the boys singing "maafkan kami" and the specifically unrequested "cinta muka buku" hahah

you guys are awesome kids~

back row: akma,sarah,izzah,alfizah,syakirah,faizah,afiqah

front row: fatin,malihah,adila,amirah,iman

my form4 girls..

who enjoyed seeing their "naive" teacher getting prank by them..hahah...

these beautiful kids~haiye...

owh...fatihah was not in the picture~

fatihah please get well soon~~~

back row: fauzan,hisyam,syazwan,nasri,ihsan,fahim,hafiz,arif,amier,mubarak

front row: shahrul,naufal,faiz,asyraf,muhammad,naqiuddin,syafiq

my form4 boys...

i wonder what happened at that time

but it's good that you guys looked so happy~

poor syafiq because he's barely there in the pic..arif pulak been blocked by muhammad

kids...

i will never forget

when muhammad fainted but no one seemed to care...haha..

instead you guys fell into my baits: coke and 100plus...hahah :D

poor muhammad~

i appreciate the fact that you kids tried to surprise me...

i enjoyed that moment very much..

till i had crammed eyebrows...hahah...

dang...

why la your teacher is sooo sweet...

blogging about you kids...

bukan nye korang ingat teacher pon kan~~ sobs~~~

get back to reality

wow..

3 months...

seemed too short...

but now i have to face the reality

that my practicum time is over..

no more writing lesson plans..

no more rushing to the class...

no more waiting for the students to submit their works..

if only i could tell my kids how much i miss them...

kids...

i hope you are doing great..

even without me...torturing you~

even without me...pushing you~

don't look for me tomorrow..

as i'm not going to be there at school..

but

i will always be here for you...

praying for your success

especially for you upcoming exams..

please make me proud.. :D

A and A+ ok!

A+ english call teacher and i'll treat you :D

by the way..

thanks for the presents~

very sweet of you kids..

although somehow i kinda feel like i got wedding gifts

*jug kettle and tea set*

shawls from the kids as well as from mdm R and english panel,

cards...

book..

etc..

i do appreciate all of them...

funny thing was..

last night..

i dreamed that i entered my 4Marikh class...*science class*

but i had to teach them accounting..how funny was that???
i never learn accounting before and it was a SCIENCE class!!!

hurm..

i guess i've been thinking about my kids all day long and got carried away..

i hope you'll never forget me kids!

as i will try my best not to forget you lot! :D

well now i guess..

my biological clock is going back to normal..

i mean..

not as normal as normal people have..

either i will go through insomnia again or excessive sleepiness disorder again..

i realized that only during practical time i had a NORMAL sleeping time... T_T

ok..

need to push my self to sleep..

it's midnight already..

i don't have the heart to go to the DKA tomorrow~simply MALAS!!!

just like anaqi said..

"baik fail kan practicum and pergi balik sekolah mengajar"

but..

of course i don't want to flunk my practicum

kids..

jangan tidur during english class tomorrow! :D