barely breathing

thanks for letting me know that i was just an option...or you might think i'm your last resort..
but i'm not interested in being one of your options..
so it's time for me to say goodbye..
and slowly..
i'm fading away from your life...



i know what you're doing
i see it all too clear
i only taste the saline
when i kiss away your tears

you really had me going
wishing on a star
but the black holes that surround you
are heavier by far

i believed in your confusion
you were so completely torn
it must have been that yesterday
was the day that i was born

there's not much to examine
there's nothing left to hide
you really can't be serious
if you have to ask me why
i say goodbye...

cause i am barely breathing
and i can't find the air
i don't know who i'm kidding
imagining you care
and i could stand here waiting
a fool for another day
but i don't suppose it's worth the price
it's worth the price
the price that i would pay

everyone keeps asking 
what's it all about?
i used to be so certain
and i can't figure out
what is this attraction?
i only feel the pain
there's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
will it ever change?


cause i am barely breathing
and i can't find the air
i don't know who i'm kidding
imagining you care
and i could stand here waiting
a fool for another day
but i don't suppose it's worth the price
it's worth the price
the price that i would pay
but i'm thinking it over anyway
i'm thinking it over anyway....

i've come to find
i may never know
your changing mind
is it a friend or foe?
i rise above
or sink below
every time you come and go
please don't come and go

now is the time...

sepi sekuntum mawar merah

semalam pergi bank settlekn urusan koperasi n pergi beli makanan..then dekat radio pasang lagu sepi sekuntum mawar merah by ella...hurmmm...
and now the song stuck in my head...

Berulang kali kumencuba
Memujuk hati
Lupakan semua
Kenangan

Namun mimpi bertemu lagi
Di saat engkau
Tiada di sisi

Ku berpegang pada janji
Tercipta..antara kita dulu
Hilangmu tiada berganti
Biarlah begini

Ku belayar di lautan
Tidak bertepian
Sesekali disedarkan
Ombak yang mendatang
Aku seperti hilang
Punca arah dan tujuan
Aku puisikan namamu
Bersama rindu
Di dalam sendu

oath

it's hard for me to let it go
as it suffocates me even more
to lose you once more
is to hard to handle
i must be crazy
for making this kind of decision
but for now
i've decided to wait
patiently waiting for your heart to decide
i've decided to wait
as long as my heart could bear
if we are not destined to be with each other
for better or worse
for richer or poorer
in sickness or in health
at that time
i'll take my own direction
we'll walk in different paths
but for now
i'll stay
and
i'll wait
you can ignore me
but i can't ignore these feelings of mine
for what ever i feel is true

Gotta get up and try

I'm really thankful for what i've gone through these past few days..it's been a month already..

But i guess the happiness doesn't belong to me...just like the movie..something borrowed..

Somehow..Pink's songs have always suit my situations...

and at the moment...her song Try is accompanying my soul..

I hope time will fly fast and soothe this damaged soul..

O Allah please make me strong to face the days ahead..

Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try, try, try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy?
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try, try, try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by, by, by

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try

You gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try

it ain't drama

well.. we often watch dramas on television..
and we thought that it was a fiction.. just an act..
we never thought that it can happen in real life too..
well most of the dramas are made based on true stories..
but i never thought that it's going to happen to those people who are very close and dear to me..
ujian Allah..
Allah will never give a test to those who are incapable of handling it..
i hope she's going to be strong and may Allah replace the emptiness with someone better..
semua yang berlaku ada hikmahnya..

2013

looking back at those past years..i'm glad and grateful for things that happened..
they made me who i am now..
years full of happiness..joy and sorrow and regrets..
those moments made me wiser and stronger to face 2013..insyaAllah
and i really hope that..Allah would grant my wishes for 2013...
may 2013 become a meaningful year and a better year for us...
i will always pray for us...insyaAllah
and i hope u do the same~