Black book entry 14 August (gonna miss them)

mm...pejam celik pejam celik...
n sedar xsedar..
da almost 2weeks we'v been to la salle for sbe..
n 2mrw is going to be our last day at la salle...
though life is quite hectic there as most of the students are uncontrollable blabla...
but...i think i'm gonna miss them..
the experience is priceless..n you cannot buy it anywhere...
well..
2day..act we supposed to take a relieve class for 5science..but...
the teacher that entered b4 us seemed like she's really enjoyed teaching that class..
until she didnt realized our presence...huhu..
so we waited outside of the classroom...for about an hour...huhu..
last2 d 4 of us da give up..so ap lg..
routine harian..amek kunci from miss aida n g lepak kt library..hehhe...
so..
today we hv 2 stayback..nk kne tlg wt persiapan pentas for 2mrw's event..
hri anugrh ko-ko..huhu...
agk mengejutkn..cz sume nye students yg kne wt..
i mean..SEMUE!!!!meaning that..
the teachers juz leave it to the students..
n if they disapprove, they hv to do it all over again..
huhu..cyan diowng..
luckily we were there to help them..huhu
so stay lame la jgk..
huhu smpi kool 4.30 i think..
aiyark..hahah...





p/s:wuargh!!!!!!!!!!!tensen nye!!!!my hp wt hal lg,...
sume pic yg amek arini..sume nye ilang!!!!!wuargh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Black book entry 12 August (this love)

this love, the veronicas

I, I,

I can see it in your eyes

Taste it in our first kiss

Stranger in this lonely town (this lonely town)

Save me from my emptiness (save me)

You took my hand

You told me it would be ok

I trusted you to hold my heart

Now fate is pulling me away, from you

Even if I leave you now

And it breaks my heart

Even if I'm not around

I won't give in

I can't give up

On this love

You've become a piece of me

Makes me sick to even think

Of mornings waking up alone

Searching for you in my sheets

Don't fade, away

Even if I leave you now

And it breaks my heart

Even if I'm not around

I won't give in (won't give in)

I can't give up (can't give up)

On this love

I can't just close the door

(on this love)

I never felt anything like this before

(like this love)

Tell me the truth no matter what we're going through

Will you hold on too 'cause

Even if I leave you now

And it breaks my heart

Even if I'm not around

I won't give in

I can't give up

On this love

Even if I leave you now (leave you now)

And it breaks my heart

Even if I'm not around (not around)

I won't give in (won't give in)

I can't give up (can't give up)

I won't give in (won't give in)

I can't give up (can't give up)

On this love

...........
should i leave n move on?
should i give up on this love?

Black book entry 12 August (SAD)

well..
1 week n 1/2 for SBE is quite tiring...
the feelings are all mixed up.. i dunnoe why..
i'm happy yet i'm mad at the same tyme..
i'm excited yet i'm afraid..
it's not an easy job for me to handle the students (all boys studs)...
coz they are playful, naughty, easily off tasks (almost at all the times)....blablablabla...
hmm...
but..
somehow..i think..
SBE is not the real prob dt in my mind now act..
it's about something else...
i dunnoe..
it just makes me to think back..
whether wut i'm doing now is right or wrong..
whether i should surrender my feelings now..
or should i just wait?
i dunnoe whether it's worth for me to stay..to keep this feeling inside..
am i choosing the right decision?
am i in the right path?
before today..
i think i am brave enough...
but now..i'm not sure anymore..
i'm starting to doubt my own decision..
oh god..please show me a sign...
that's all i can ask for now..

Black book entry 29 July

hmm.. what a day...
during lecture diz morning..i didnt pay any attention at all..
what i did was...
i opened my lappy..and then ap lg..hehe..men tenet le jwpnye..
but in DKC only gt GPRS je..
so cm slow sket r d connection...
tetbe..tym LnL...mem Suguna asked question..
she used d tactic of passing around d mic..3 or 2 rows at the back..2 or 3 person next to you..blabla..
until i gt da mic..
she ws asking about..IDEAL h-smthg..i cant remember da.hehhe..thank god..b4 she asked me..i've already asked illi what was that thing all about..so i just repeat what illi had told me earlier..
-general n da result is not specific (though i even dunnoe what was that means..heheh..well..i just parroting after all)...
then..during cm..tetbe je da lecturer asked questions regarding d previous lecture aka yesterday's lessons...n again..yesterday i was dozing off..nt really dozing actually..bt i was sleepy..n i didnt pay attention..again..hehhe...so i was like klangkabut gle in finding d answers..da la xde in coursebook+i didnt bring da coursebook 2day..heheh..cz bajet xgne pon..
da la da lecturer was calling out people's names..huhuh..sume owg glabah da..cz takot name kne pgl..seb bek xkne..huhuh
then ktowg pon g le library..just amek attendance for eltm..pastue ktowg lpk kt library..waiting for LS workshop..huhu
donnoe y td tyme ls cm ngantok gle...though d topic ws about becomin a teacher..tp cm still cant capture my attention or to keep me awake..huhuhu..ngantok gle..
huhuhu..then i asked mard urut tgn le..cubit le..himpap tgn le..still ngantok gk..
heheh..ptg td g maen badminton..wif mimie, illi n che nad..huhu...
sakt tgn ku..myb bcz yesterday i played bowling for 1 1/2 games..plus badminton lg for today..so mybe da muscle cm da bengkak ke hape..dunnoe le..
k..i hv to stop now..cz gt LnL n CM's drafts to finish..hehehe..

Black book entry 27 july

-daku gila mengEDIT gamba-

huhu..well..as i mentioned b4...though i hve lots of asggmnt..but still..i dont hv da mood to do so..hehe..so...i opened my adobe photoshop..n started to edit some of my photos..heheh

huhu..this is an amateur artwork...hehe...

Black book entry 27 july

well..i know that for some people..black book is where people usually recorded the name and offense of everyone who has ever done her wrong..hohho..but not me..i just like the name..fullstop..

huhuhu..today...i spent da day doing nothing...huhu..
though i have assignments waiting to be done..hehhe..
well..this morning(26 july) we gt replacement class..for cuti raya..and my mind set ws like up side down now..
though it's saturday..but i felt like it ws friday..n today's already SUNDAY!!!!which mean..tomorrow is MONDAY...argh!!!!!i need a rest!!!huhu(wlopon i'v been sleeping d whole day long)heheh...
lots of thing to do...A-SIGH-MOND-szzzzzzzzz....hehe...
but luckily..for ms..i'v already submitted..n oral presentation for ELTM pon da lps..
infact..the evaluators hv given positive comments and they even promoted my group to other grouo..hheheh..kind of riak sket..hhehe...mau xnye..we did it last minute...tdo pon kol bpe pg ntah..and that morning..the four of us sumenye ngantok..esp me..n out of sudden..mard, mimie(they're not my groupmates for ELTM..but they were sleepy too) were accused by the lecturers for a crime that we didnt commit...TALKING???i dont see any connection between sleeping and talking..huhu..thank god the lecturers don't even knew our names..hehhehe...

Black book entry 26 july

i know that..not everybody is perfect..
but at least we try to be perfect..by respecting each other..
as people try to forgive and forget..
still..there's a person..that will never learn even a thing..
about what she's done...still..there's a person..that never realize a bout her own wrongdoings..
because for her..she only cares about what people had done bad at her..
not all the develish things she had committed..
i dont understand this kind of person..
what actually she think about others?..just a bunch of coward that afraid of her?..
as if...people wont even dare to mess with her..if so..you'll pay for the crime..
could she just imagine or at least give it a thought that..she's just a little dust in this world..
with or without her..the world is just the same..the world does not revolve around you!
but still..this fella never feels ashame..as others willing to forgive and at least try to forget her sins..the biggest mistakes ever..that some people might cannot forgive or rather forget..
who is she..to warn people..to blackmail others?come on la girl..dont be silly...
you just a human being..not god or what...
may allah will always bless this fella and bring her back to the right path..