wishes

it's funny when you know what your students think of you~~~haha...

and it's always about your status...single/married....

-_-"

haish...

last time..jadi MADAM tak pasal2...since when i got married pun i don't know..

haha..so had to explain to them difference between MADAM and MISS...

and then..unit perperiksaan pulak printed my name as PUAN NOOR RAIHAN....

yesterday...my form2 students asked me...

student A: teacher, where are you going to celebrate raya?
teacher: my hometown...
student: where?
teacher: don't know yet...
student B: teacher...you have how many hometown?
teacher: 2
teacher: my father's side and my mother's...2 lah..why?
students: we thought you are married~

haih...sudah terang lagi bersuluh i told them to call me MISS Raihan..and even when they greet me dalam kelas pon they called me MISS Raihan...again...had to explain the difference between MISS Raihan and MADAM Rahimaton...although the initial both would be MR...hehe...
do i look like someone who already married??haha...

and during my extra class with my form4 students pon...they asked...

studentA: teacher bila nak kawen?
teacher: tula..haish..kalau ada confirm i dah bagi u kad...
studentB: xpe..insyaAllah ada...
studentC:xpe..malam ni lailatulqadar...
teacher: doa banyak2 k :D

haha...and today...i received kad raya from my form4 students..

the funny thing was..when i read the wishes from my boys...

hahaha...wish number 1 tu yang paling tak boleh blah...thanks for your wishes..keep on praying for teacher :D

dah kalau students keep on wishing me and semua pon asyik tersasul2 aje...laju la sikit kot jumpa :D amiin~~~

definitely i will invite all of you nanti... :D

so happy eid mubarak everyone...

sedih sebenarnya because i didn't have class with them today~

dah la quite a few yang dah balik yesterday~

but i know all of them were very excited sebab tak ada class...dah la tu...dapat duit raya lagi...

last time during my time...mana ada dapat duit raya~ T_T

hopefully i could see all of you right after the school break ends~come back in one piece~

dang...after that..i only have 4 weeks before my practicum ends~~~ *dislike this*

happy eid mubarak...

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kiddos~

it has been a long time since my last post..

pheww..

well..what else would i talk about if not about my dearest students..

how they made me proud and how they disappointed me..or maybe how i have disappointed them..

this morning...my cooperating teacher observed my form2 class...and i was very nervous this morning..i went to the loo for 3 times..rasa semacam je..as if i get the feeling that i'm going to screw up my lesson...

so i went to my class early..to set up everything and to make sure that my students were ready for the lesson..

entahla..maybe because i'm too nervous, i talked faster than usual..and my lesson finished 20minutes early...after that..blank..i didn't know what to do..calling for desperate need..i told my cooperating teacher and asked her what i should do next...

after that i felt so frustrated...not because of the feedback given by my cooperating teacher..

indeed i admit what my cooperating teacher said were true..and i accepted it as i'm still learning..

nama pon student teacher kan..but...i felt frustrated looking at my students' reactions and responds to my lesson..

before this...tak pernah la nak menguap..or terlelap ke...but today they did...it's always during my observation with my cooperating teacher..supposedly they would behave themselves as my cooperating teacher is actually their own English teacher...but..they seemed not bother at all...

hari ni lah nak buat perangai...why????

after that..rasa macam tak mampu dah nak harungi hidup ni...

even other teacher also asked me why i looked so tired..

then...something happened..ceh..

just now i had extra class with my form4 students...rajin kan?

basically i was discussing the answers for their July test...so almost half of the class la yang datang..i didn't force them to come...i gave them freedom..haha..*from now on..whenever i said freedom i'm going to remember one of my students :D* ok..freedom to choose...whether they want to come or not..so seeing the responds..ok..i realised that when we learn to let go instead of holding on..they will come back to us...haha..macam what sheryll did to us last time la..conflict2..because she insisted on wanting us to behave, read the articles beforehand, turn up in tutorials.blablabla..sampai lah one day she walked out from the class..saying that she won't care anymore...and she never force us after that...everyone pon happy je..datang je..and dia pon tak ada dah nak pengsan2 sampai masuk hospital dah...

so ok la...bila lebih dari 10 orang yang datang kan...

so we discussed all the answers...bila dah habis...i asked them whether they have any questions..

and then all of them asking me to tell stories...hahah...so we talked...and talked.. and i told them how proud i am seeing their poster hanging outside of their classroom...i seriously thought that they were going to paste it inside their classroom...and so far..they have never let me down...haha..tu pon sebab i never gave them homework dah..susah sangat nak buat homework..

haha...they asked me about my blog..na'a...i won't tell you..hahaha.. :D

what a day~

tiba2 rasa malas nak update...so just a short brief of my day~

1. pagi2 kelam kabut siapkan literature questions for form4 July test
2. since Portable LCD Projector PIBG kak aisyah dah chop..I had to find yang lain..nasib baik kak aisyah willing to help me...dapat lah bilik IBM..tho it's quite sempit...
3. preparing for my lesson...supervisor datang nak observe..kelam kabut ulang alik from bilik IBM to bilik guru mengangku stuff...
4. my kids were doing very good~~~haha...and luckily..tak pernah2...hari ni lesson smooth aja..timing pon tepat aja.. :D owh how i love today's class :D
5. settled with observation, tolong kak aisyah siapkan soalan2 july test..betul2 kan format and all...
6. melepet di kerusi sebab kepenatan~~~~~satu hari busy....

owh...i just discovered that i'm kind of having this selective social phobia...

will talk about this later

#%$^&^(&)_%^%@ kids..why??why????

apakah bahasa yang teacher caru* kan tu?

haha...

teacher rasa..teacher layak untuk mencaru* sebentar...

haih la kids~~~~~

today was my first time being observed by my cooperating teacher..

I prepared everything..

my lesson plan..remembering the sequence and flow...

my storytelling..

my set induction...

and supposedly my today's lesson was the continuation of my previous lesson...

because my kids weren't able to complete the given task on time..

and that lesson was on MONDAY..

and I had told them SPECIFICALLY that..

they have to complete their stories...write it down on the mahjong paper...and they will have to present it TODAY...WEDNESDAY~

two groups didn't get the mahjong paper so..I asked my student to buy it and I even gave him the money to buy...siap cakap "keep the change" lagi...

and so...I entered the class...thinking that they had completed everything...

tinggal nak present je...

and you know what had happened actually???????
masuk2 aje kelas...

i saw 1 group tengah siap kan their story...

and the boys...said..

"teacher, tak siap lagi...tak ada masa la teacher...ihtifal"

i was like..

"#$$&^I&&(^##!!#@%&&@*@)*$)@*!(&#" dalam hati...

nak nangis pon ada..

nak mengamuk pon ada...

and I said..

"no! you should have completed your task by now...i gave you 2days to complete!"

and then my cooperating teacher entered the classroom....

dalam hati..."masak2...nak buat macam mana ni.."

so i just carried out my set induction...

my presentation...story telling...

part practice tu...their storytelling session...

itu yang tunggang langgang...

lain yang di plan..

lain yang jadi...

teacher dah budget dah..

supposedly your story telling would take 30minutes...

you present your stories...

we identify the 27 items...

we identify the sequence connectors used...

we identify the simple past tense used..

together...

and what a wonderful world would it be if that's what really happen~~~~~~

but...

what really happened?

you guys just read your stories...

monotonously..

no actions...

penat2 aje teacher demonstrate dekat kamu...

tapi kamu tak ikut pon...

among 5 groups...only TWO aje yang ada majong paper????

only TWO aje yang dapat nak identify 27 items etc...

semua yang teacher impikan...

kamu dah hancurkan macam tu aje??
bagai menghenyak istana pasir teacher~~~erk!

owh..pasal budak yang sepatutnya beli mahjong paper tu...

boleh tak...

hari ni baru he told me that kertas mahjong dah habis...

he had like what...TWO DAYS to tell me..but why must TODAY?????

dari 30 minutes yang teacher plan...

rasa2 tadi dah habis dalam 15 minutes aje..

tak pasal2 teacher terpaksa reka activities yang tak wujud dalam lesson plan teacher...

terpaksa sambung storytelling teacher...dengan suruh kamu berlakon..

teacher jadi narrator..

itu pon...

kamu malu2 nak buat actions...

kamu jadi dragon tapi kamu terbang macam ironman...

kamu jadi knights nak selamatkan princess...tapi kamu jalan macam petani tak banyak hasil tanaman sebab tak hujan setahun...

kamu jadi king and queen..tapi kamu gaya macam pakcik makcik duduk dekat pondok minum kopi sambil cicah biskut merry...

apakah?????

tengok2 jam..ada 10 minutes lagi...

apa teacher nak buat????
nasib baik teacher baru googled language games...SHIRITORI...

penat2 teacher explained dekat kamu rules game tu...

one person at a time..

one person one word..

dah kuat dah suara teacher cakap dalam kelas...

kamu boleh tak dengar teacher cakap apa???

dah la tu...mula2 aje kamu ikut rules...

makin lama kamu menipu..

seorang berdiri...tolong tulis untuk semua...

kamu ingat teacher tak nampak kamu buat apa???

padan muka kamu teacher bagi kosong terus...HAHAHA...

kenapalah hari2 lain kamu OK..

tapi hari ni kamu KO!!!!

kenapa perlu hari ni??????????

teacher rasa frustrated sangat dengan kamu...

nasib baik tadi my cooperating teacher ada...

kalau tak..hahhaha...tapi tak apa...kamu tunggu la minggu teacher balik from IPBA..

siaplah kamu seorang2...hahaha...

esok nak kena observe dengan supervisor pula...

my dear kids...i told you already..to be in your best behaviour...

hopefully..kamu faham maksud teacher...

jangan nak hampakan teacher pula esok...

nanti tak pasal2 teacher mencaru* lagi...dalam hati...

kids~

bak kata orang..tak kenal maka tak cinta...

tak kenal macam mana nak cerita~haha...

and that was my mistake when I first entered my class...

I was too concerned about the introduction part..

I didn't want to do the "typical" introduction session

asking ASL etc...

afraid that the students would take advantage

I went teaching straight away...continuing their previous lesson...

In my class...I always opt for group activity and presentation..

as I wanted them to speak more..in English...

it's the time for them to practice and use English...

and so...I noticed a few of them who love to do the presentation,

who are excited or not with the lesson...try to translate Malay words into English whenever I walk near them...and who refused to take part...

and there's a boy...

whom I noticed seems to be not bother at all...and I kept on reminding him to help his friends with their presentation...

dijadikan cerita..

before this..

teacher teramat pening kepala menanda summary anak2 murid...

ada yang tak faham article..

ada yang tak faham apa itu summary...

and only a few yang betul2 kenal apa itu summary..

so..

I bought a file for each one of them...

a JOURNAL file...

supposed...I wanted to buy a log book..tapi tak ada dekat Carefour Mid Valley..

and so it became JOURNAL file..

I asked them to write anything...about their feelings...their days..experiences..books or movie reviews...anything...as long as they write something...

and I gave them a piece of blank paper..

for them to sketch or write anything that represent themselves

basically...

I want them to write...to practice writing...in order to improve their writing skills..

the more you write...the better you will be...tak gitu? :D

so I asked them to write over the weekend and submit their journal file to me on Monday...

when I read their journals...

i learn more about my students...

the reasons behind their attitudes..

and that boy...

the boy that I thought who seemed not to bother at all...

he's actually emotionally unstable...

I guess maybe during that time..

he was frustrated about something..i don't know

maybe...

maybe...

they wrote about their days...

the sports carnival..that happened few days ago...

some won and some loss..

mostly about their lives...

and from that I can conclude that..

these kids...

they just want or need someone to listen...

listen to their stories...

listen to their needs...

that would be enough for them...

the thing is...we..human...we forget things easily...

we once a child like them..

and we do have that desires...once..

the desire for the adults to hear our voice..

but...as the time we grow older...we forget...

kita rasa...kids have to listen to us...not the other way round...

we forgot that..they've suffered enough..

to please others (families, teachers and schools)

by sacrificing their needs..their childhood...adolescence...their time..to play around...mingle..discover..

there's always a reason why people become who they are...

and so my students...

dan mereka perlukan kata2 semangat..

kata2 nasihat...

showing that people care about them...

after all hard work that they've done..

Kids....

Your Journal is not just a Journal..

you may think that it's just another essay that you have to complete as homework..

no...

I would like you to treat your Journal as part of your life..

no pressure...

since I give you the authority to decide on what you want to write...

Homework tu lain cerita lah :D

But through Journal...I hope you could improve your writing skills..

you may not realize it now..but sooner or later...

you will...

and kids...

please keep on writing..

I would love to read your stories...

in fact..I'm more excited to read your journal than your summary~~~ :D

teacher akan lakukan yang termampu untuk membantu anak2 murid teacher jadi pandai BI :D

remember..

don't be afraid of making mistakes..you'll learn from them...

and I'm no perfect person..I'm still learning...and most of the time kids..I learn from you~

ouch...

I guess I'm going to miss you guys...

oh my school!

oh my school! episod kali ini,

haha...ain..if you're reading this I bet it's because of the tittle.. hehe :D

but I'm not going to talk about the korean tv show..

today's topic is....

kerisauan seorang guru muda~ *gulp*

dear my students....

teacher harap...apa yang teacher ajar kamu...

masuk dalam kepala otak kamu...

teacher bukan apa...

teacher risau...

kalau2 lain yang teacher ajar kamu..

lain pula yang kamu dapat...

elok2 kamu dah faham apa yang teacher asal kamu ajar...

lepas teacher masuk kelas kamu..

terus kamu tak faham...

teacher pun tak tahu apa patut teacher buat..

patut teacher fokus pada topics yang akan masuk dalam July test..

atau those essential matters that you need to know and you need to learn?

dear my students...

memang teacher nak kamu jadi bijak pandai..

teacher nak kamu semua berani..

berani untuk menggunakan bahasa inggeris dalam percakapan..

I know you can speak Malay very well and you're comfortable to speak in Malay..

but I want you to use English as much as you can in my class..

because I know...

once you set your feet out of my English class...

you'll use your mother tongue..

that is why..

I would like to give you as many opportunities as I can for you to explore the language

and use the language...

don't be afraid of making mistakes...

because you'll learn from your mistakes..

I make mistakes too..and I'm still learning...

my grammar is not that great yet..but I'm still learning...

and I'm learning from you...

I learn from your mistakes...

because from your mistakes...I learn to improve myself..my teaching practice..and my beliefs

dear my students...

I'm not an experienced teacher...

I'm just a trainee teacher...

so forgive me if I'm not as good as your teacher..

and I hope you enjoy my lessons..

dan kamu faham apa yang teacher cuba sampaikan..

marilah sama2 kita belajar from each other...

teacher akan cuba jadi teacher yang terbaik untuk kamu...

dan teacher harap...

after these 3 months of practicum..I could proudly say that..

I'm a better person now...

and so my students~

*Can't smile without you*...by Barry Manilow~kids...I hope this song can replace your all time favourite *The lazy song* :D

budi bahasa budaya kita

usaha teacher untuk memartabatkan bahasa melayu dan memperkasakan bahasa inggeris berjalan dengan agak lancar.. :D

so far, teacher masih berjaya untuk menulis dalam bahasa melayu baku tanpa menggunakan perkataan2 singkatan..dalam istilah inggeris nya "short forms" :D

terasa diri ini amat puitis lah pula~

oh..budi bahasa budaya kita...

kata orang..bercakap biar berlapik..

cakap siang pandang2, cakap malam dengar2..

tapi masyarakat kita masih lagi memandang enteng peribahasa2 ini...

situasi:

di dalam pejabat sekolah yang diterangi lampu kalimantang di siang hari beranginkan penyaman udara...sedang kakak kerani pejabat membuat salinan fotokopi handouts2 guru2 pelatih, berpusu2 3 orang guru "terlatih" masuk ke pejabat untuk membuat salinan surat kenaikan pangkat masing2 *agaknya lah*

selepas kakak kerani yang baik hati (pada waktu itu) selesai, 3 orang guru pelatih hendak berlalu pergi..dengan misi hendak melarikan diri dari terserempak dengan ketua jabatan yang banyak pe'el nya..selepas guru2 pelatih ini menjejakkan kaki ke luar kawasan pejabat...

guru 1: patutnya jangan dilayan budak2 ni...ni ha..kita ni nak photocopy nak naik pangkat

guru 2: patutnya mana boleh pakai mesin kat pejabat...kita dulu..nak sentuh printer pon tak boleh..komputer..lagi la...dulu pakai duit sendiri ja nak photocopy bahan2

kakak kerani: betul tu...

*soksek2 mereka sedang ligat mengumpat guru2 pelatih...

kakak kerani 2: eh..nak photocopy ke?

guru pelatih yg ke-4: ha ah.. *sambil tersenyum*

guru 3: tapi kalau untuk students kita tak apalah...

*tidak sedar akan kehadiran guru pelatih yang ke-4 yang telah lama menahan panas telinga mendengarkan perbualan2 tidak berlapik dan cakap2 belakang guru2 bertiga*

*selesai kakak kerani membuat salinan handouts untuk guru pelatih ke-4

guru pelatih yg ke-4: terima kasih lah, students saya ada 60 orang..kalau tak habis duit saya dekat photocopy aje lah.. *sambil tersenyum dan berlalu pergi dengan sopan santunnya*

moral of the story...

why our people should be jealous of other people uh?

sifat hasad dengki inilah yang suatu hari nanti akan membinasakan bangsa sendiri..

talking behind other people's back is one thing..

if you really mean it..why can't you tell us?

tell us that we're not supposed to use the school facilities such as printing etc?

if the principal has no problem with us using the photocopy machine, why should you?

after all..the materials are for your students sake too..

kami bersengkang mata mencari bahan2 yang sesuai..to help the students to improve their English...

but why you have to cover what you've said with statement yang tidak masuk akal?

contradicting..

of course...definitely..we're printing and photocopying stuff for your students..

tak adalah pulak niat photocopy 50-60 helai untuk dibuat pekasam setiap hari..

keikhlasan kami sebagai guru baru diperlekehkan...

kami tahu kami guru pelatih...

ilmu tak sedalam mana..

tapi perlukah kami di anak tirikan? semata2 usia kami yang jauh berbeza dengan anda?

the issue is..who's the one that doing personal matters?photocopy untuk kenaikkan pangkat atau photocopy untuk kecemerlangan pelajar?

sikap guru2 "terlatih" yang mengejar pangkat dan gaji sebeginilah yang mencalarkan prestasi pelajar2..

no wonder the students' performances are degrading..and same goes to their attitudes..

why? because they learn from the experts..yes...YOU!

apart from that...i feel very disappointed..because one of the teachers is someone that i knew..

the other two...who cares~but I recognise their faces..

being a student..in your eyes...the teachers are the captains..masters of all trades..they know everything..and they are not being sceptical or judgemental towards others..

but now..

being a colleague..i realised...they all are just human..they are no saint...some of them..

and i hope..my respect to my teachers that i've known for years won't fade away...

just like my respect to these 3 teachers...

and hope..this incident can be a reminder to myself too..