pi mai pi mai tang tu

haish...

people said..

life is like a wheel..once you'r up..the next time you'r down..

tapi kenapa cepat sangat?

baru je bangun..

dah jatuh balik~

i don't want to spoil the mood since it's my last class with the lil ones..

tapi tula..

shit happens...

@_@

ay

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never thought that 2 girls came to me just now...

they were apologizing for what happened in class this morning...

and i was touched by their sincere apologies..

then i realized that they started to cry...

the moment i hugged them..

i felt like i wanted to cry too...

but have to be strong...

i've forgiven your wrong doings~

it is just that i had to give you guys a wake up call...

ay

p/s: rasa serabut sangat with the clock right in front of me showing that it's 8.45 since this morning but it's already 2.09...urghh..the clock is messing with my brain right now~~~ @_@

the end

saat jatuh dah lepas..

dan sekarang adalah masa untuk bangkit dari zaman kejatuhan~

well...dah nak habis practicum dah..

rasa kejap je..

last 3 months, when i first entered the school..

rasa macam...

"huish..lama nya nak tunggu 3 months..."

"how am i going to survive my practicum..."

bla bla bla..

but now..tinggal lagi 4 days...

i have only 1 class left with my form2 students and 2 more with my form4 students...

still..

there are more things that i've planned to do with them..

but i'm running out of time...

seems like 3 months are not enough...

kids...

i'm sorry i couldn't keep my promises..

the promises that i've made to myself..

to help with your summary..

to help with your argumentative essays...

to help with your reading comprehension...

to help you improve your speaking skills..

and many more...

hopefully...

apa yang teacher dah ajar korang..ada la masuk sikit2...

tak banyak pon 150% masuk pon jadi la~ :D

i've been through ups and downs with my kids..

they've taught me a lot of how to be a good teacher..

"a good teacher teaches..but great teacher inspires"

of course i want to be one of the great teachers...just like those who have been my inspirations..

my mom *indirectly* thanks to her that i chose this profession..seriously...

my teachers..especially cikgu natrah and cikgu zuriyal who both had changed my life..and influenced my styles..

my english teachers since primary to secondary schools..who never fail to make me feel bored with english...

but..to become a great teacher, i need to learn how to be a good teacher first..

hopefully i've been a good teacher to all of you~

life is never perfect...

but we learn to live perfectly in imperfections :D

kids..

having all of you as my students is an honour..

despite your "eagerness" to submit your homework on time

despite your "energetic" responses to all my questions..which i ended up generously talking to the fans spinning above my head and becoming Ms Broom~ :D

despite your "200%" focus on my lessons...

i enjoy the time we had together...

the time i mistakenly took the arabic dictionary while trying to search for an english word

the time i watched you acting like "husband and wife" because you turned up late~

the time i was amazed with your creativeness in producing your own skits, posters, cinquain

the time you made jokes about jet ski, plumber *actually i almost laughed at the jet ski joke...but had to maintain my straight face :D*

so hopefully..

you will always remember me and regard me as your teacher~

and hopefully..

i could still remember you in 20 years from now...getting old..forget things easily..

*ceh...no need to wait until 20 years..you guys baru 14-16 pon already giving me excuses "i'm sorry teacher, i forgot"

well..i guess...that is one of cliche excuses that i'm going to hear in my next 24 years of teaching..

itu pon kalau i'm still a teacher la kan..

kalau kahwin laki kaya..i could retire early, stay at home or go for shopping ke kan..

haha..

naaaa...i guess i'm going to stick with this profession as you kids make me realized how i love this profession..

geesh..i hate farewell....

p/s: just finished reading my old posts...and realized how lame i was...but..somehow i'm very proud of myself as i realized that i have improved in my style...hahah..well..everyone has their LAME moments~ so do i~

saat jatuh

blehhhhhhhhhhh....

tak suka nya bila dihampakan..

why?

what did i do wrong this time?

tahniah..

anda berjaya mematahkan semangat teacher..

"kalau taknak belajar..teacher pon taknak mengajar dah"

first time i feel so down...

masa kena condemn with baginda supervisor..walau bengang tahap gaban sekali pun..

i still felt excited to teach my students..

bersungguh2 cari bahan and activities yang seronok..

so that takde la mengantok belajar english tengah hari..

****

bila fikir balik..

ni baru sbp..

kalau posting sekolah harian..

entah macam mana la nasib nanti..

blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

wishes

it's funny when you know what your students think of you~~~haha...

and it's always about your status...single/married....

-_-"

haish...

last time..jadi MADAM tak pasal2...since when i got married pun i don't know..

haha..so had to explain to them difference between MADAM and MISS...

and then..unit perperiksaan pulak printed my name as PUAN NOOR RAIHAN....

yesterday...my form2 students asked me...

student A: teacher, where are you going to celebrate raya?
teacher: my hometown...
student: where?
teacher: don't know yet...
student B: teacher...you have how many hometown?
teacher: 2
teacher: my father's side and my mother's...2 lah..why?
students: we thought you are married~

haih...sudah terang lagi bersuluh i told them to call me MISS Raihan..and even when they greet me dalam kelas pon they called me MISS Raihan...again...had to explain the difference between MISS Raihan and MADAM Rahimaton...although the initial both would be MR...hehe...
do i look like someone who already married??haha...

and during my extra class with my form4 students pon...they asked...

studentA: teacher bila nak kawen?
teacher: tula..haish..kalau ada confirm i dah bagi u kad...
studentB: xpe..insyaAllah ada...
studentC:xpe..malam ni lailatulqadar...
teacher: doa banyak2 k :D

haha...and today...i received kad raya from my form4 students..

the funny thing was..when i read the wishes from my boys...

hahaha...wish number 1 tu yang paling tak boleh blah...thanks for your wishes..keep on praying for teacher :D

dah kalau students keep on wishing me and semua pon asyik tersasul2 aje...laju la sikit kot jumpa :D amiin~~~

definitely i will invite all of you nanti... :D

so happy eid mubarak everyone...

sedih sebenarnya because i didn't have class with them today~

dah la quite a few yang dah balik yesterday~

but i know all of them were very excited sebab tak ada class...dah la tu...dapat duit raya lagi...

last time during my time...mana ada dapat duit raya~ T_T

hopefully i could see all of you right after the school break ends~come back in one piece~

dang...after that..i only have 4 weeks before my practicum ends~~~ *dislike this*

happy eid mubarak...

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kiddos~

it has been a long time since my last post..

pheww..

well..what else would i talk about if not about my dearest students..

how they made me proud and how they disappointed me..or maybe how i have disappointed them..

this morning...my cooperating teacher observed my form2 class...and i was very nervous this morning..i went to the loo for 3 times..rasa semacam je..as if i get the feeling that i'm going to screw up my lesson...

so i went to my class early..to set up everything and to make sure that my students were ready for the lesson..

entahla..maybe because i'm too nervous, i talked faster than usual..and my lesson finished 20minutes early...after that..blank..i didn't know what to do..calling for desperate need..i told my cooperating teacher and asked her what i should do next...

after that i felt so frustrated...not because of the feedback given by my cooperating teacher..

indeed i admit what my cooperating teacher said were true..and i accepted it as i'm still learning..

nama pon student teacher kan..but...i felt frustrated looking at my students' reactions and responds to my lesson..

before this...tak pernah la nak menguap..or terlelap ke...but today they did...it's always during my observation with my cooperating teacher..supposedly they would behave themselves as my cooperating teacher is actually their own English teacher...but..they seemed not bother at all...

hari ni lah nak buat perangai...why????

after that..rasa macam tak mampu dah nak harungi hidup ni...

even other teacher also asked me why i looked so tired..

then...something happened..ceh..

just now i had extra class with my form4 students...rajin kan?

basically i was discussing the answers for their July test...so almost half of the class la yang datang..i didn't force them to come...i gave them freedom..haha..*from now on..whenever i said freedom i'm going to remember one of my students :D* ok..freedom to choose...whether they want to come or not..so seeing the responds..ok..i realised that when we learn to let go instead of holding on..they will come back to us...haha..macam what sheryll did to us last time la..conflict2..because she insisted on wanting us to behave, read the articles beforehand, turn up in tutorials.blablabla..sampai lah one day she walked out from the class..saying that she won't care anymore...and she never force us after that...everyone pon happy je..datang je..and dia pon tak ada dah nak pengsan2 sampai masuk hospital dah...

so ok la...bila lebih dari 10 orang yang datang kan...

so we discussed all the answers...bila dah habis...i asked them whether they have any questions..

and then all of them asking me to tell stories...hahah...so we talked...and talked.. and i told them how proud i am seeing their poster hanging outside of their classroom...i seriously thought that they were going to paste it inside their classroom...and so far..they have never let me down...haha..tu pon sebab i never gave them homework dah..susah sangat nak buat homework..

haha...they asked me about my blog..na'a...i won't tell you..hahaha.. :D

what a day~

tiba2 rasa malas nak update...so just a short brief of my day~

1. pagi2 kelam kabut siapkan literature questions for form4 July test
2. since Portable LCD Projector PIBG kak aisyah dah chop..I had to find yang lain..nasib baik kak aisyah willing to help me...dapat lah bilik IBM..tho it's quite sempit...
3. preparing for my lesson...supervisor datang nak observe..kelam kabut ulang alik from bilik IBM to bilik guru mengangku stuff...
4. my kids were doing very good~~~haha...and luckily..tak pernah2...hari ni lesson smooth aja..timing pon tepat aja.. :D owh how i love today's class :D
5. settled with observation, tolong kak aisyah siapkan soalan2 july test..betul2 kan format and all...
6. melepet di kerusi sebab kepenatan~~~~~satu hari busy....

owh...i just discovered that i'm kind of having this selective social phobia...

will talk about this later

#%$^&^(&)_%^%@ kids..why??why????

apakah bahasa yang teacher caru* kan tu?

haha...

teacher rasa..teacher layak untuk mencaru* sebentar...

haih la kids~~~~~

today was my first time being observed by my cooperating teacher..

I prepared everything..

my lesson plan..remembering the sequence and flow...

my storytelling..

my set induction...

and supposedly my today's lesson was the continuation of my previous lesson...

because my kids weren't able to complete the given task on time..

and that lesson was on MONDAY..

and I had told them SPECIFICALLY that..

they have to complete their stories...write it down on the mahjong paper...and they will have to present it TODAY...WEDNESDAY~

two groups didn't get the mahjong paper so..I asked my student to buy it and I even gave him the money to buy...siap cakap "keep the change" lagi...

and so...I entered the class...thinking that they had completed everything...

tinggal nak present je...

and you know what had happened actually???????
masuk2 aje kelas...

i saw 1 group tengah siap kan their story...

and the boys...said..

"teacher, tak siap lagi...tak ada masa la teacher...ihtifal"

i was like..

"#$$&^I&&(^##!!#@%&&@*@)*$)@*!(&#" dalam hati...

nak nangis pon ada..

nak mengamuk pon ada...

and I said..

"no! you should have completed your task by now...i gave you 2days to complete!"

and then my cooperating teacher entered the classroom....

dalam hati..."masak2...nak buat macam mana ni.."

so i just carried out my set induction...

my presentation...story telling...

part practice tu...their storytelling session...

itu yang tunggang langgang...

lain yang di plan..

lain yang jadi...

teacher dah budget dah..

supposedly your story telling would take 30minutes...

you present your stories...

we identify the 27 items...

we identify the sequence connectors used...

we identify the simple past tense used..

together...

and what a wonderful world would it be if that's what really happen~~~~~~

but...

what really happened?

you guys just read your stories...

monotonously..

no actions...

penat2 aje teacher demonstrate dekat kamu...

tapi kamu tak ikut pon...

among 5 groups...only TWO aje yang ada majong paper????

only TWO aje yang dapat nak identify 27 items etc...

semua yang teacher impikan...

kamu dah hancurkan macam tu aje??
bagai menghenyak istana pasir teacher~~~erk!

owh..pasal budak yang sepatutnya beli mahjong paper tu...

boleh tak...

hari ni baru he told me that kertas mahjong dah habis...

he had like what...TWO DAYS to tell me..but why must TODAY?????

dari 30 minutes yang teacher plan...

rasa2 tadi dah habis dalam 15 minutes aje..

tak pasal2 teacher terpaksa reka activities yang tak wujud dalam lesson plan teacher...

terpaksa sambung storytelling teacher...dengan suruh kamu berlakon..

teacher jadi narrator..

itu pon...

kamu malu2 nak buat actions...

kamu jadi dragon tapi kamu terbang macam ironman...

kamu jadi knights nak selamatkan princess...tapi kamu jalan macam petani tak banyak hasil tanaman sebab tak hujan setahun...

kamu jadi king and queen..tapi kamu gaya macam pakcik makcik duduk dekat pondok minum kopi sambil cicah biskut merry...

apakah?????

tengok2 jam..ada 10 minutes lagi...

apa teacher nak buat????
nasib baik teacher baru googled language games...SHIRITORI...

penat2 teacher explained dekat kamu rules game tu...

one person at a time..

one person one word..

dah kuat dah suara teacher cakap dalam kelas...

kamu boleh tak dengar teacher cakap apa???

dah la tu...mula2 aje kamu ikut rules...

makin lama kamu menipu..

seorang berdiri...tolong tulis untuk semua...

kamu ingat teacher tak nampak kamu buat apa???

padan muka kamu teacher bagi kosong terus...HAHAHA...

kenapalah hari2 lain kamu OK..

tapi hari ni kamu KO!!!!

kenapa perlu hari ni??????????

teacher rasa frustrated sangat dengan kamu...

nasib baik tadi my cooperating teacher ada...

kalau tak..hahhaha...tapi tak apa...kamu tunggu la minggu teacher balik from IPBA..

siaplah kamu seorang2...hahaha...

esok nak kena observe dengan supervisor pula...

my dear kids...i told you already..to be in your best behaviour...

hopefully..kamu faham maksud teacher...

jangan nak hampakan teacher pula esok...

nanti tak pasal2 teacher mencaru* lagi...dalam hati...